"kalo ngomong sama ulma tu direct, jgn muter kemana2"

coz my head's too soft ;p
smpe sama manager wau dikasih nama "Lathif" which means subtle/soft.. soft on the head -.-

i cant take hints :D

(tp gitu ngakunya deep person -.-)

lho iya sih, sometimes i like to think n consider stuff kebanyakan

trus jadiny neglect other stuffs yg harusnya dipikirin jg :D

suka nyeplos :p

"anak ini sadis", kata kemal

boyfriend: "emang kmu peduli klo anak itu ngejauhin kmu?"
me: "engga juga sih"
boyfriend: "terus?"
me: "i just dont want to make a normal-relationship becomes distant"


im not like that to everybody

i saw this friend of friend of mine this evening
dan nyadar klo aku pake kaos yg sama yg ak pke skrg, sm wkt ketemu dia (setahun yg lalu?), well kaos, jaket, dan jeans :D

pgn gt kadang2 mengubah penampilan :p
oh vina ure such an inspiration
duluuu kita bedua sama2 setia dgn jeans n t-shirt
skrg vina udh pke daster/dress lucu2.. dah dandan.. punya boot lucu
me still in jeans n t-shirt :p
kayaknya aku pernah ngepost kyk gini juga yak
its just
aku tu takut klo misalnya fokus ke appearance, aku lupa sama "inner-self" yg mesti dibagusin juga
do i sense hypocrisy here?
tp kata org, klo too much focusing on deficiencies, ga maju2
(kata org2 jg spertinya sy sperti itu, selalu ngeliat apa yg kurang dr diri sendiri, which reminds me of elv's post recently)
for me its hard to be positive, be nice, for myself
klo buat org laen, oh its so easy, its already like my nature
to be nice to other ppl
coba disuruh nice k diri sndiri
oh no no no

Tuesday Night Round-up

kenyanggg!!! :D
makan menggila :p
havent done that since.. erm since the 1st year here..
lasagna, kolak, rendang, ayam panggang, uhm sayur2an kukus, green curry soup, ager2, aa... masuk semua... (exc. bakso sih, huhuh maap2 sy not too interested in bakso)

tp paling sebelnya makan gila kyk gtu.. bsok pagi, pasti udh laper lg -.-
kayaknya makan banyak ga ngejamin klo ulma will not b hungry for 12 hours :p

salut for kemie.. ayam panggangnya enak :D terang aja, dibuat dgn at least 9 macam bumbu.. cool cool..

put too much expectation for my rendang :p hasilnya tak bgitu memuaskan -.- huks..
masi ada rendang ni.. ada yg mau? :D

maybe could be possibly

maybe everything that i said was just a lie
something that is only for the human eye
i in fact have become a pry
for innocent, sensitive self thoughts and apple pie

it could be that you're living in vain
or its me who could not gain
the real meaning of beauty through pain

possibly these days are merry days
full of laughters and cheerful gays
for an insolent person like I
this holiday will only be a sight for sore eyes
meaning more or less
have a happy holiday, you cowering jays

you will not like this

i love you and i miss you always
i know that i have to trust you more
and trust myself more..make myself to want to trust myself
and for myself to be trusted by myself..to make myself be trusted by none other than myself

i love you
please know that i love you
if everything in this life happened
please know that i always love you

love come and go
love scream and went away
but you own my heart my mind and my soul

God if i'm not like this
i will be arrogant
if not
i will loose You

do I have to choose?
i hate to choose
You know i can never choose T_T

God help T_T

the worry-wart speaketh

i wont complain about the dirt on my shoe
wont whine if i cant buy a new coat
i cant decide on which road i want to go
i always hesitate
too much thinking
so many people today
so lonely inside
seeing you through a thick glassed wall
sitting in the dark
my messy room
time either stops
or crawls slowly
i have a lump on my throat
if i could arrange pretty words to make up a beautiful sentence
if i could be so light-hearted so light my scars will fade
if i could find clarity again
if i could go somewhere tranquil
if i try and be persistent to keep things pure
i am not without evil thoughts and selfish needs
if only i could tie my thoughts down
and not let it flutters away without any purpose
the devil the devil in me is dancing
now im older i think i start to know what they're after
and i wonder, now that i know
will it change?
will it wear a sheep's clothing and transform itself into something else?

why do i worry about these things while others doesnt?
i sounded like those religious/philosophical people (or not)
i worry too much
and done nothing

i am too difficult maybe
too difficult to understand
have i told you enough to make you think that i should stop talking?
has it come to your mind that my thoughts are jumbled lines?


(Koran said that every human is a 'khalifah' - leaders in life)

to the point

AlterNet: 'Christian' Game Leaves Behind A Pile of Corpses

This story has been forwarded to you from
http://www.alternet.org by u.haryanto@musicmayday.org


'Christian' Game Leaves Behind A Pile of Corpses

The Left Behind video game encourages you to celebrate the birth of Jesus by wasting dozens of people at a time, using a variety of Christ-sanctioned weapons.

once upon a time..

there lived two young maiden
neah thats from my old aurelvin and cinderulm chronicle-tale-whatever

my organisation seriously need to put more tasks on my job description -.-
skrg saya nganggur
ga jg sih
im gonna edit some proposals. with this NGO everything's about projects, projects and more projects.. but izzoke, coz thats where they got money from.
update some archives..

tomorrows gonna be my supervisor's last day.
and me, yinske (a volunteer for dance4life) and annelies (supervisor #2) are gonna have tea/coffee together in the afternoon.

my bf just got some feedbacks from his thesis-tutor. GOOD LUCCKK!!!

from around the web:
the Future Film Festival 2007, Bologna

Virgin Mary-Komodo: at a zoo in UK ada komodo yg bertelur without any ehm copulation with the male species

just had a meeting with MM-NL
they found me some tasks ^^ yippee
so now i am gonna do some research for the country pavillion activity, make proposal (again)
and start to think of what stuffs we would like to have

probably will b working for them as well in January.

ah lets see lets see..

can anybody find mee....

...somebody to love? :D

today is a cold day -.-
tp td pagi si carrot guy datang dan memberikan tart. awalnya aku disuruh milih, mo tart peach ato apel karamel, i answered, "can i have both?" *grin

and so he did give me both
yay ^^
akhir2 ini mood carrot guy bagus. gara2 ultah kali ya.

semalem wktu aku balik lagi k kantor, ternyata kan si anjing besar (kantor saya bekas sekolah tua, some part of the building is residential, some for offices) dilepas (anjing besar hitam dgn bulut lebat kepunyaan the family who lives at that residential part of this old building complex). trus dia tu yg lngsung lari2 menggonggong mendekat -.-
trus udh gtu ga lama kmudian carrot guy keluar dr bangunan, dan lngsung si anjing gonggong2 nyamperin dia

terus majikannya manggil si anjing
anjing pun berlalu

trus willem was nice, he talked to me for a while (biasane lek ketemu cuma say one / two word seadanya). becanda2 dikit. trus pergi. sy balik k kantor, dia pulang.

nuttin much happened today
except for the tart ^^ ENAK ASLI
dan itu tu kali fresh-baked soalnya pie-crustnya bener2 crunchy ^^ mmm yummmm!!!

no really interesting news except the 10 deaths in Pekalongan (eh iya ga ya) karena... konser UNGU -.-
omG puhliz.. i hope its not a new sick trend there

selesai mengedit proposal music mayday eritrea
dan skrg try to come up with a b-connected meeting plan buat.. taon depan -.-
klo jadi bakal diadain di Ethiopia or Tanzania
semoga oh semoga..
10.21 am
Willem (carrot guy yg bassist-jazz dr utrecht) dateng k bawah (kantor MM-NL di atas) nyari kopi
mata kedutan --> kelopak mata kiri yg bawah kedutan mulu dari sabtu (pa jumat ya)

oh GOd ngantuk -.-

i need coffee

td dateng2 ngeteh sih
tp ga ngepek :P
coffeeeeee me wanna

3.07 pm
ngantuk menyerang >.<
time for my erm 3rd cuppa coffee

i feel bad because today my boyfriend was having an exam and i couldnt even call to cheer and support him :(

i wish he knew that i'd prayed for him

*mata berkaca2*

In the Wee Small Hours of the Morning

I stepped out of the building and saw at a distance the bulk of mist formed
after a cold night (Brr..*i made sure that my jacket is wrapping me tightly)

The cold touches its chilly hands upon my nose.. "Good morning", it said.
And then slowly it crept inside my jeans, but only up to the knee. Since I'm
wearing a rather long coat, my upper-leg can still be warm.

Transferred for tram 5 at VU. Sat next to a large girl with a "hospital"

Last night I went to Isrina's place. It was her birthday the day before. She
cooked delicious sea food meals *yummy*. (squid, n shrimps n oysters =D~)

I was supposed to work at the restaurant on that day. But... after thorough
consideration (cieh), i've had enough of myself who always think of money
money money and how could i earn as much as i can.

True I still need money, and by not working at that day means I lost the
opportunity of having at least additional 30 euros. But yea... I felt like
"I've had enough of that excuse"

Not going with my best friend because of work
Could not attend my good friend's birthday because of work


I still need money
But after a while i realized that "money cant buy happiness" :D
opo seh
no.. my point is
There ARE people that i'd really treasure (yez surprise, surprise.. this
Ulma who thought she's so cool and independent and does not need anybody
else :p) and it's just the right thing to sacrifice my 'monetary needs' for

So im glad that i could say "no" to make more money n prefer spending
quality time with my good friends instead :D

Worth memorizing conversation for today:

<:3)~* zegt:
kayaknya gw emg ada tampang boook keeper ya
elvin zegt:
ada ada
elvin zegt:
*icon smiley*
elvin zegt:
kacamata + tampang cupu + ngefans sama ari wibowo

ada satu lagi sih, tp since its about other ppl so.. wont include it here :D

Other cool stuff that i discovered today:

TOP 10 DANGEROUS TOYS (incl. sky dancers xD u know, those stupid flying
twirling fairies)

COOL MOUSE-BOT :D http://www.nextnature.net/research/?p=816

My best friend recently got hooked up with heeled shoes. Apparently it's not
only her that can wear such things ;)

blognya teman kerja:

yang pacarnya aktris ZOOP! (sinetron anak2 d sini yg isinya ttg safari n adventures). pacarnya temen gw kerja ini jd "favorite actress" d sinetron itu. bahkan dia dijadiin wax figure d madam tussaud :p
this is her blog

and this is their blog


apa yang saya lakukan hari jumat 15 desember 2006

not much :P

dateng k kantor, 10 past 2 minutes.
bikin kopi (4 spoon of perla oke gold coffee --> max havelaar certified + 1 spoon of ethiopian coffee --> music mayday approved :p)
ngecek email, ada email dr leanne-manager music mayday d tanzania, nanya soal prince claus fund.
called mrs. chavrot (french lady, that explains the name n the accent) from pcf
answered leanne's email
read more emails
deleted stuffs
put some in blocked sender list
buka vh1.com/radio unforgettable station (lagu2 klasik american pop, ray charles, frank sinatra, nancy wilson dkk.)
liat baju2 this designer called 'charles chang lima'
baca blog adik saya yg kok keren sekali sih kmu dik!
left comments at some blogs
said hi to abel
chat ma elv
called mr bf
ngutak ngatik google calendar, trus bikin kalender khusus buat resto biar ga bingung soal jadwal kerja anak2 :p
poured my 2nd cup of coffee
paused radio, changed to foobar, nyetel misty-julie london :p

ku berkabutttt
tak berdaya seperti kucing di atas pohooon (here i go again)
dan ku merasa seperti bergelantung pada awan
ku tak mengerti
aku berkabut setiap kali memegang tanganmu
berjalanlah ke arahku
dan beribu biola pun bersuara
atau mungkinkah itu ucapan "hallo" darimu
musik yang terdengar itu
ku berkabut, di saat kau dekat
tak dapatkah kau lihat, kau membawaku?
dan itulah hal yang kuinginkan
tak sadarkah kau bahwa aku tersesat?
karena itulah ku mengikutimu
ketika aku menelusuri dunia khayal ini sendiri
tak bisa bedakan kaki kanan dgn yg kiri
topi dgn sarung tanganku
ku terlalu berkabut, dan terlalu jatuh cinta.. :P

la di da

A story of a friend

Helped me remember

That the world is cruel

No, not the world


People can be cruel

(and stupid, kata bokap)



If you don’t have something strong to hold you

If you don’t have that big rock to hold on to

You got carried away

Stumble and fall


Hurt yourself badly





May God help us and will not let us astray (too far)

Just make sure we can find our way back




*atur napas*

*atur napas*


knp menggalakkan penggunaan kondom untuk mencegah AIDS kurang efektif d india

cara pencegahan AIDS d Afrika yg might b highly effective

test your movie buff skills

soundtrack of the day:
you and i both - jason mraz
ini jaman2nya magang d tembagapura.. ma lina.. hiks hiks.. probably wont ever gonna go back there again :(

mari di translate ala everly sisters :D

Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me - apakah itu kamu yang mengatakan kata2 bahwa hal2 bisa terjadi tapi tidak pada ku

Oh things are gonna happen naturally - oh hal2 bisa terjadi tentu saja

Oh taking your advice I'm looking on the bright side - oh mengikuti nasihatmu, aku melihat sisi positif

And balancing the whole thing - dan menimbang semuanya

But often times those words get tangled up in lines - tapi seringkali kata2 itu terjerat larik larik

And the bright lights turn to night - dan sinar yang benderang berubah jadi malam

Until the dawn it brings - sampai fajar membawa

Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me - hari lain untuk menyanyikan keajaiban yang kamu dan aku

Cause you and I both loved - karena kamu dan aku sama2 pernah menyukai

What you and I spoke of - yang kamu dan aku pernah bicarakan

And others just read of - yang lain lain hanya pernah membaca

Others only read of the love, the love that I love. - yang lain hanya pernah membaca cinta, cinta yang aku cinta

See I'm all about them words - jadi aku hanya tetang kata-kata itu

Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words - tentang angka, kata2 berangka tanpa beban

Hundreds of pages, pages, pages forwards - Beratus halaman2, halaman2, halaman2 berikutnya

More words then I had ever heard and I feel so alive - Lebih banyak kata2 dari yang pernah aku dengar dan aku merasa sangat hidup

You and I, you and I - kamu dan aku, kamu dan aku

Not so little you and I anymore - tidak terlalu sekecil kamu dan aku lagi

And with this silence brings a moral story - dan dengan keheningan ini membawa sebuah kisah moral

More importantly evolving is the glory of a boy - evolusi yang lebih penting lagi adalah kemenangan seorang anak laki lagi

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just dream of

And if you could see me now - dan jka kamu melihatku sekarang

Well I'm almost finally out of - yah, aku hampir kehabisan

I'm finally out of - aku akhirnya kehabisan

Finally deedeedeedee - akhirnya deeddee xD

Well I'm almost finally, finally - yah aku hampir akhirnya, akhirnya

Well I'm free, oh, I'm free - yah aku bebas, oh, aku bebas

And it's okay if you have go away - dan tak apa bila kamu harus pergi

Oh just remember the telephone works both ways - oh tapi ingatlah bahwa telepon itu bekerja dua arah

And if I never ever hear them ring - dan jika aku tak pernah mendengarnya berdering

If nothing else I'll think the bells inside - jika tak ada lain aku akan berpikir bel2 di dalamnya

Have finally found you someone else and that's okay - telah menemukan seseorang lain untukmu dan itu tak apa

Cause I'll remember everything you sang - Karna aku akan mengingat semua yang telah kau nyanyikan

Cause you and I both loved what you and I spoke of
and others just read of and if you could see now
well I'm almost finally out of.
I'm finally out of, finally, deedeeededede

well I'm almost finally, finally, finally out of words.- yah aku hampir akhirnya, akhirnya, akhirnya kehabisan kata2

dear diary,

dear diary,
i dont feel good today
i dont feel great
i feel sad and pathetic
i want to find a hole, crawl inside and die
15th is 10
blm sreg katanya
trus what should i do?
that fear comes again

little by little

i hope everything will be okay
im still trying to walk again
after crawling for a long time
be careful
thanks to God, to him, and her :)

what's hot on PPI Amsterdam mailing-list :p

1. Poligami (or is it poligamy? polygami?)
Berawal dr posting kontroversial Amin mengenai "Tips Poligamy dr Aa Gym", yang mengundang bbrp komen (most of them r opposing Amin). But this guy (Amin) always start the controversy. His posts always lead to heated discussions, but nice though :D
i never thought that Indonesian students can be so opinionated and critical :)

2. Rencana Kunjungan DPRD Riau ke Belanda
Berawal dr kunjungan DPR ke Eropa beberapa minggu lalu. No comments here.

3. Saran beli laptop
no comment

4. Form Pemilu Ketua PPI-A 2007
from outside sources: mas Wiby dan Nefry akan mencalonkan diri

ulma --> kinda want this guy to try the position
and elect myself jd dewan pengawas :D :p
or my hubby, heheh

sore ini langit di amsterdam berwarna kuning :)
after the rain n thunder
...the aliens r coming!! ... ;P
besok beni pulang :(

ulma's song of the day (thx Vin)
ada hubungannya sama the hottest topic on PPI-A'dam mailing-list. Coz the song was an original soundtrack from 'Berbagi Suami', translated in English: Husband-Sharing :P

zudulnya "Pergi tanpa Pesan" (Gone without a Message -huh?) yg nyanyi Sore:

Mencari intan pujaan - Looking for my adored diamond
Aduhai, dimana puan - Alas, where is woman
Mengapa pergi tanpa pamitan - Why gone without saying anything

Lembah ku turuni - I'll go down the valley
Bukit yang tinggi ku daki - Climb the highest hill
Aduhai, tak kunjung jumpa - Alas, I don't see you
Mengapa hilang tak tentu rimba - Why disappear into thin air

Laut hempaskanku padanya - Sea, bring me to her
Bintang tunjukkan arah - Stars, show me the way
Ooh angin bisikkanlah mana dia - Ooh wind, whisper to me where she's at

Hati cemas bimbang harapan timbul tenggelam - My heart is uneasy and worried, hopes rise and fall
Aduhai, permata hati - alas, the jewel of my heart
Mungkinkah kelak berjumpa lagi - will i ever see you again

translation by everly sisters' member
ini akibat dr nyanyi2 lagu inggris sama elvin trus diterjemahin k bahasa indo (dgn hillarious effect), dan now im doing the other way around (dan tak kalah anehnya :D)
hasil shooting sehari :p

i dont really like the clip
awalnya keren sih
trs pas bagian "nyanyi soul" juga bagus
tp yg lain kadang agak2 ga sinkron -.-
dan knp pula mrk ngambil bagian yg itu wktu scene saya? -.-
wktu kacamata sy melorot

kurang lively juga
backgroudnya item sih.. jadi kesannya gloomy
dan scene2 yg dipilih bbrp sebenernya ga gtu berhubungan sama MM values (those words yg muncul d tngah2 clip)

dan whats with the "LOW AND MEDIUM economic?" yaiy :-s
emg bener kita ngebantu org2 itu.. tp apa ga ada cara yg lebih subtle nyebutinnya?

i really look small between those ppl there :p

monday is meeting day

every monday selalu ada meeting "team" setiap jam 11.30 to 12.30. ga selalu on time selesai 12.30 sometimes longer, but never shorter :p
buat chairperson dan minute-takernya juga digilir.dan this week i was the chairperson :P

so monday becomes "the day" when everybody reports on what they've been doing, recent news and gossips, when we realize that theres soooo many things to do. the day when we set up new tasks and action points :p

dan today emg feels like one of those mondays. cuma kerasa lbih tighter karena udh masuk desember, bentar lagi org2 gone for vacation, so some stuffs need to be cleared, tasks need to be done.

belum lg nasib kantor gw (TMMF-nya) yg sedang tak menentu :p

mrk (para management team) assure us (para internee) klo buat kita, kontrak bakal berjalan sprti biasa. cuma yg jelas pihak management bakalan dirombak. yikes.

some ppl might not be here, some ppl might.. double yikes.

so i still have the interconnectivity guide for dummies on my to-do list. hari ini juga meeting ma mr. communication and campaign coordinator buat ngebahas details. trus meeting ma bu supervisor #2 (yg bakal jd #1.. yg bakal jd #0 .. klo by the end of Jan 07 the Board of Directors say bye bye to her), ngebicarain jam kerja saya :p
coz couple of weeks ago i've been working 2 full-time jobs :P
one here one @the restaurant(s) --> the beloved tanjung sari n wau
wlo i decided to quit one of them, they think its still do me good if i work not 40 hours a week.
jadilah: 36 hours
so monday i can start later (11 am) coz they know sunday i will b @ work
n thu/fri i can leave earlier (3.30 pm) depends on which day i would work @the restaurant :P

next thing is my currently-supervisor-#1's farewell party.
She's going to leave the office @22nd. dan karena perbedaan jadwal&agenda, jadinya pestanya baru bisa diadain mid-jan 07.

So either @ the 11th or 19th
me (again) jd party committee heheh
i dont have the look or the attitude at all to be a party person tp apparently here they ask me most of the time (baru dua kali sih :p .. out of two parties yg diadain so far) -.-
or myb its bcoz theres nobody else here to do it :p
"oh yeah, just ask the internee to do it"
pestanya bakal diadain d kntor aja, ntar org2 bawa minum/makanan sndiri(kinda potluck)
tp bukan makanan berat2.. 'borrel'-style (snacks, crackers, cheese, canape food)

umm trus entar sore ada acara 'arisan hollendrecht' :p hehe
nice nice
well i should leave in like 4 minutes
diadain d tmpatnya mba dita.

kay..dats all i guess.
gonna write some more for the guideline n then im off!
Dear God,

It's been a long time since I thank You for anything.
So here goes..
I thank You for the condition that i am now in:
- my supportive family
- friends that are always ready to lift my spirit up
- amazing people to look up to and to learn "life" from
- un-complain-able health condition
- situations and events that make me remember that there is still the Entity that is stronger than anything
- still could have a PC to bear with the lonely nights :p
- still breathing, living despite those many times that I wish for everyhthing to end

Altho I still feel like a crouching mouse on the corner. Peeking outside from my tiny mouse hole and trying to comprehend that big big thing called the world and the hustle and bustle of the creatures living on it.

i always feel like a small kid

a grim small girl

dont know when's the right time to get out of my mouse hole and explore, do something, make traces of my mousy-existence!

yeah right
but that have to wait
or might never come
me n my tiny ambition
me n my dreamless life
me n my ever-extinguished motivation
too many promises that i cant fulfil
im waiting for my world to crumble

4 days to mum's birthday

..Now the caffeine doesn't work..

gile ngantuk :p

This morning saya:
-balas emailnya Lina
-baca2 berita
-send more emails
-minum 2 cangkir kopi (kopi ethiopia campur douwe egberts :p black, 3 cubes of sugar :p)
-minum 1 cangkir teh rooibos
-edit stuffs
-ditelp. nyokap (she's worried coz i hvnt sent any news back home for weeks.. sorry mum :( ndak ada pulsa neeehh xp)

things that made me stop from work:
the article bout Indian clercks resignation on Quran polyphonic ringtone - "Al Quran tu bukan buat lucu2an!"
Java gas pipeline blasts :( - terrible, terrible. skrg body countnya 10 instead of 7
the death of the ex-KGB Alexander Litivenko (jd inget Alias ..)
cuban-style RADIOHEAD - HIGH N DRY :D - enak ^^
dutch election - what kind of coallition will come out..?
what's a giant squid doing in the middle of a parking lot? :p (with a drinking bottle beside it)

edit: nov 30 06 wtf kok jd gambar iklan gitu??

ini gambar yg benar, saudara-saudari:

This is fun

hancik :D
this thing is so cool
gw baru tau ada "Google Trends"
I typed 'Friendster' and 'My Space'

search volumenya sih, emg my space lbih tinggi.
news reference buat friendster was on a peak at the beginning of 2006

1. Makati, Philippines

2. Manila, Philippines

3. Quezon City, Philippines

4. Pasig, Philippines

5. Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia

6. Bandung, Indonesia
7. Jakarta, Indonesia

8. Petaling Jaya, Malaysia

9. Singapore, Singapore

10. Pleasanton, CA, USA

it prooves that org filipin lbih demen FS, dan anak2 bandung lbih gila FS drpd anak2 jkt :D hehehe

How do the Cities, Regions, and Languages tabs work?

When the Cities tab is selected, Google Trends first looks at a sample of all Google searches to determine the cities from which we received the most searches for your first term. Then, for those top cities, Google Trends calculates the ratio of searches for your term coming from each city divided by total Google searches coming from the same city. The city ranking you see on the page and the bar charts alongside each city name both represent this ratio. When cities' ratios are fairly close together, the corresponding bar graphs will be roughly the same length, and the exact ranking between these cities is less meaningful.

The Regions and Languages tabs work just like the Cities tab. Google Trends uses IP address information from our server logs to make a best guess about where queries originated. Language information is determined by the language version of the Google site on which the search was originally entered.

Keep in mind that instead of measuring overall interest in a topic, Google Trends shows users' propensity to search for that topic on Google on a relative basis. For example, just because a particular region isn't on the Top Regions list for the term "haircut" doesn't necessarily mean that people there have decided to stage a mass rebellion against society's conventions. It could be that people in that region might not use Google to find a barber, use a different term when doing their searches, or simply search for so many other topics unrelated to haircuts that searches for "haircut" make up a very small portion of the search volume from that region when compared to other regions.

Trus nyoba type in 'world of warcraft' sama 'guild wars'.. ya as predicted WOW lbih tinggi search volumenya.

google, yahoo, msn: heheh ternyata search volume yahoo punya paling tinggi.. google ga malah paling rendah. why? soalnya org2 pke google, ngapain search google lagi? :p *asal*

top language: french

blogger, wordpress, typepad, blogdrive: blogger highest in search volume,dan wordpress juga climbing pelan2. blogdrive baru muncul graphnya awal 2005. with top cities from Brazil n Singapore

paris hilton, lindsay lohan, britney spears :P
graphnya kejar2an mepet2an gitu, both search n news volume. tp d awal taun 2005 "the search for" paris hilton peaked quite high ninggalin yg dua.

kbanyakan yg nyari org australia (hoo.. g'day mate.. seneng gosip banget kali ya org2 d situ)..dan mrk rata2 look for miss hilton. cuma di venezuela yang punya rating britney spears lbih tinggi ngalah2in paris.

oh iya, top languages:
1. Turkish

2. Swedish

3. English
hwahahah.. kok bisa....

These things that i want to know

i know you're busy
it's just these things that i need to know
to give me strength
to still hv confidence
in our "relationship"

what do you want of us?
do you still see me n you only temporary?
do you see/do you want this to have a future?

clapping with one hand is not working
do you want me to wait for something?
or will this be going for ever n ever?

i know im busy too
but i always think of you
and too much thinking without doing nothing
depressed me
thats why im always mad with no real reason lately

are you enjoying having a relationship like this?
we rarely talk to each other
(even if we do, its very to the point and business-like)

i don't get to see you as often as i like anymore
you're not here when i need you the most
and im not sure if u ever feel the same

i told myself over and over again
not to think too much
but situation is changing
cant you see?
i don't mind changes
as long as i can still see the final goal, and be okay with it

we need to talk

do you still want the same things like you do 9 months ago?
when you first asked me to be your girlfriend?
(we missed the 9 month anniversary, successfully.. i had told myself not to make a fuss about it, coz i know u don't
and it breaks my heart knowing that I REALLY could forget about it =/
i don't want to be like this :( )
does this relationship meet your expectation?
do we need to change something?

please, you're in a relationship now
what you do also concerns other people, me
your plans for your life will affect mine too
better said good-bye to it if you don't want it anymore :S

i want in everything we do,
to have a purpose
what's the purpose of loving someone, having a relationship?
are you sure its that?
yeah.. i don't feel supported right now :S
i know you supported me financially
but that's not what a boyfriend's MAIN TASK is

aku tau mungkin kmu ngerasa udh jd pacar yg baik
dgn ngingetin aku segala macem

but please give me something
that i can hold on to
or else this would just fade away

those things i want to know
those things i cant just ignore n leave behind and go

somebody already broke my heart

it's not fair
everytime im angry,
everytime i thought that i almost explode

then i hear your voice
that anger evaporates
i no longer hv any reason why i should hate you
or why i should be angry at the first place


You came along when I needed a savior
Someone to pull me through somehow
I've been torn apart so many times
I've been hurt so many times before
So I'm counting on you now

Somebody already broke my heart

Here I am
So don't leave me stranded
On the end of a line
Hanging on the edge of a lie
So be careful and be kind

If someone has to lose, I don't want to play

No, no I can't go there again


klo emg perasaan berubah
mo diapain lg
u told me all the time
dont need to tell me again

fine, what do u want now?

Buy Nothing Day - ADBUSTERS.ORG

Buy Nothing Day - ADBUSTERS.ORG

on 21-22 november culture jammers ask people to have a "buy nothing day". ada yg mo ikutan? :D

di Indonesia juga ada yang nyelenggarain. organizernya KUNCI Cultural Studies Center, Yogyakarta.

and .. an indonesian blog dedicated around this purpose: kisah belanja orang indonesia

people come and go...

just received three sad news:
- Valen's dad passed away, hope she got there on time
- Beni's dad passed away a week ago (beni is itha's, my bestfriend since junior high, boyfriend)
- The wife of my dad's acquaintance. Both are(were)only 24, and had been together since high school T_T

semoga yang ditinggalkan diberi kekuatan dan petunjuk, semoga yang meninggalkan diberi pengampunan dan diterima di sisi Nya (amin)

"Sterkte, Val.."
hehe.. congratz vin.. for your story :D

si ganteng #2

biar adil :p

si ganteng juga nih

see.. im a nice girlfriend :)

that was at paris half-a-year ago, and boy he did loose some weight now.

si ganteng <3

this is
si sutradara yg mencerahkan hari saya ketika video-shoot moodclip music mayday

kayak john cusack gtu ga sih? :p

tampak atas <3

ohhhh *faint*

bisa ketemu lg ga ya *dreamy eyes*

other photos can be seen here

neah no pictures of me.. tenang aja.. hehehe (the camera hates me :P)

ntar klo ad yg pke jaket item dan kupluk putih, itu Abel, kolega saya d sini, yg sama2 anak INholland itu.

hasil pergi ke IKEA

berikut adalah hasil dari kunjungan saya ke IKEA Amsterdam:
Lampu meja GRONO 4 EUR (tak jd beli lmpu dinding.. coz lampu dinding = ngebor
EH tapi
stelah saya perhatikan
ternyata d sekitar kabel listrik yg mencuat dr dinding itu
sudah ada lubang2nya >___________<
abis kan biasanya lampu yg d sini ga pernah terlalu terang.
dan skrg sy beli yg lebih terang
baru keliatan kl d situ udh ada lubangnya
tinggal nancep2 paku/sekrup doang
y udh next time, next time

bohlam lampu 40w 4 biji 2 EUR

karpet kecil (ahum,.. alas lantai) AGGER 70 X 130 cm 2 EUR

weker DEKAD 5 EUR

cermin TYDAL 5 EUR

tempat sampah WALLIS 1 EUR --> oh this is funny, IKEA actually sells cardbox with plastic pins that if folded and attached accordingly can transform into a waste basket..!

kursi JEFF 5 EUR

mousepad LAGIS 50 sen

tasnya ikea yg biru buat bawa semua di atas 50 sen

and now my room is een stukje beter en ik word ook een stukje blijer :D

why stuffs and wordly materials can make me happy?
oh i am such a material girl..
living in a material world..

tinggal gorden :(
tempat gw kayaknya ga mungkin pake panel-curtain coz.. well maybe bisa
agak maksa..
yg jelas mesti cari pengait2 itu dulu
td si ikeanya lg ga ada stok :(
but myb klopun ada, gw ga bakal mungkin beli semuanya juga
td tu gorden yg bisa dicantol ke pengait cuma beberapa jenis. dan yg paling murah 35 euro (2 stuks sih, dan bahanny emg tebal). warna+motifnya juga tak sesuai harapan. but yeah.. im still hoping that i can install the panel-curtains to my room. kan lucu tuh.

riviera sudah nangkring di PC. tinggal dimainkan :D

Abel akhirnya ngasi offer buat 2 free tickets to parties/concerts for max. 10 EUR per ticket as a compensation to last week's video-shoot.
Masi ndak tau mo liat apaan. tadinya wktu cuma dibilangin one ticket max. 15, pgn liat john van der slice (kpn hari jd band pmbukanya death cab for cutie d a'dam). tp ga jd gara2 eventnya hari rebo.

Trus stelah diganti dgn 2 free tickets instead of one. ohohoh.. brarti bisa ngajak bapak ^^
pgn liat jazz ..
know any good (n rather cheap :p) jazz gig anyone?

of curtains and lamps

this morning ketemu isrina
she was off to the bibliotheek
kmrn ngobs ma dian, how sad our life is T_T
(tp dian, ur life is more pathetic, hehe)
but remember: its only for 2 or 3 years, girl!

tiap rebo kemis jumat skrg ulm kerja d WAU, ngegantiin Vina

tempat baju kotornya prima masih d rumah

i sometimes see ifta online
wondering where chitra might be

my life's never far away from those hollendrecht girls :p

this morning Lina SMS-ed me. she was just back from my parent's house, celebrating my parent's anniversary.
how sad, wish i were there
jd pengen banget pulang :(

ayo ulma, nabung.. nabung
(duit perasaan abis mulu ni T_T)

kabar kamar baru:
harusnya kmrn k ikea, nyari lampu yg bisa dicolokkin ke colokkan yg ada di dinding, dan gorden.
tp kena bad-mood attack. apalagi klo bukan gr2 effin GVB T_T
dah ah.. tobat2.. abis ini beli abonemen.

jadiny pengennya entar sore k ikea (amin)

tp untungny kmrn dikasi pinjem lampu sama bu supervisor yg selalu ceria dan baik hati itu (myb rata2 cewe sagitarius begini?)
jadi kamar saya udh lumayan penerangannya
udh ada gba emulator juga hehe.. jd bisa maen ffta. (abis ini riviera). dah ada the urbz juga sih.
trus coba2 maen cake mania :p
trus dah donlot lagu2 juga
dan lately sy lebi suka denger yg ambient-jazz-acoustic-soft stuffs (even buddha bar). ga terlalu nge-RAWK..

besok dr jam 9am - 4 pm

gtu masi ngedenda org lagi T_T

ya anyway. pokoknya entar k ikea. beli gorden dan lampu
n i'll b happy..

Peter Parker says Hi again

9th of Nov
trailer spiderman 3 was officially launched

sebelum2ny teasernya juga dah liat sih .. love the venom suit
but still, is it just me, my screen, or the spiderman does look fat in those black suit?hmm.. tp kan harusnya item itu menguruskan.. apalagi pas liat waktu si black spiderman ngegantung kebalik, dan look at the reflection of himself dr jendela gedung, red-and-blue spidey. org yg d kostum spidey asli keliatan lbih kurus =S

dunno ah dunno.. ga penting.. yg jelas pengen liat Venom :D

other things: s3 official movie blog; short clips on mtv.com related to 'the making of s3'


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that coal mine in Essen

Waktu project DIESCOM akhir tahun lalu (omiGod.. sudah setahun yg lalu kah itu?)
me n anak2 taun ke-4 anak2 komunikasi yg lain pergi ke Essen, Germany.

Trus, wktu itu diajak juga ke "Tambang Batu Bara"
at first, sceptic lah..
idih apa2in sih.. ga elit banget tur kok k tambang batu bara.. heheh

mana disuruhnya bawa baju + jaket + celana + sepatu yg agak jelek, soalnya bakalan berlumpur d sana.

yaelah.. males banget dot de e (soalny lg d jerman)

Jd di tambang batu bara yg juga dinobatkan jd salah satu dari UNESCO World Heritage itu, kami dibawa berkeliling.
Spesialnya apa?
tu tambang dibangun tahun 1930, dan meng-employ 2 arsitek ternama ketika itu: Fritz Schupp dan Martin Kremmer (sorry, link ke wikipedia-nya temporarily only available in Deutsch)
Dan cara mereka mengkonstruksi seluruh kompleks tambang batu bara itu, menggunakan prinsip2 seni arsitektur. So.. tambang batu bara satu2nya di dunia yg "nyeni". CK ck ck..

dis is our pic when visiting the mine:

so anyway, memang manusia tidak pernah puas (sadap). ni tambang direnovasi lagi. the government there decided to appoint a Dutch Architecture Agent to rebuild the whole site. (gile salut de buat org belanda). the same agent who re-design seattle public library

yg jelas skrg tu tambang udh jd kayak gini:

anyway ck ck ck.. lagi..

(from wmmna)

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today .. eh yesterday was quite an interesting day..

sering klo pas pengen nulis, tp gara2 dah capek jdiny males.
lemme make some points:
#1 td tu udh binun mo ikut shooting moodclip ato engga. telp sana sini akhirny abel bilang klo kurang org
#2 studionya jauh bo! 30 min. walk from spaklerweg (incl.nyasar n bengong cari direction)
#3 anak2nya asik2
#4 sy jd pemain synthesizer! (fakin it tho)
#5 SUTRADARANYA TERNYATA GANTENG NAN RUPAWAN :D indo-blasteran gitu sih kayaknya, tinggi, langsing, matanya biru.. oohhh ga cakep2 amet emang, tp gw suka liat mukanya yg kalem tenang hohohoh ^o^
#6 gila my 1st video-shoot experience ever dah.
#7 sore ke WAU, dianter ma chidi (temen dr inholland yg jg gw ajak k situ)
#8 d WAU ketemu sm mas dimas dan mba novi yg ternyata telah menikah :p (baru tauu gw)
#9 tadi ada klanten yg cuma bayar 50 pdhl tagihannya 56,90 (doh -.-")
#10 dan skrg sy pusing

dah ah tidur


im tired of being by myself
im tired of being on my own
and the thing with my life is that it keeps on showing me the hope that 'i dont hv to be alone' while in the end it is always the same.
owh tired tired tired

di luar ujan tambah deres n i cant bring myself to go home
im still at the office.. c r y i n ' !
dats patetic
this mood swing im having is terrible

i got angry, sad, happy coming and going every 20 minutes or something.

lbih banyak depressednya sih T_T

caffeine oh caffeine.. i love you but you are not good for me...

and i dont want to go home =(


practice self-restraint
patience.. patience.. patience..

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nag nag

i hate naggers

and unfortunately my future-neighbour is one -.-

aw shucks

ah sudahlah..
you should practice to stop being gloomy/sad/depressed

try it for a week

"when i count to 10..

you will wake up
and everything that has just happened was only a dream..











ever think, where will you be?
if the whole time, everything that you thought was real, was just a dream? an illusion?

i'd do anything to turn back time
anything to re-boot my life
anything to forget him
anything to deny his existence

coz when u jumpd
i jumpd
lets jump together u said
n then suddenly
turns out ure on a bungee
while i hv nuttin
ow shit
im crash-landin
n ure hangin safely
f u


ya actually since hari jumat kemarin, im officially the renter of uilenstede 74-499.
But bcoz of this n that, baru pindahan.. emm possibly..entar sore
tp itupun blm total
paling yg esensial2 dulu. sperti: pakaian untuk a couple of days, slimut, sepre, bantal, dan toilettries.
kasur mnjem dr beni dulu (kamar unfurnishd). laptop terpaksa dtinggal dulu, but ad pc menanti d sana.
tinggal kabel LAN sih. umm i 4got whether the PC has a wireless card in it or not. klo ada ya bagus. i wont b lonely tonite xD
ah tapi d uilen banyak teman2 (dan kenalan2) juga sih. teman2 yg sy tak pernah temui kecuali klo kebetulan, or ada keperluan.
entar pindahan totalnya hopefully will b done sunday morning. dibantuin ma pak prim, the neighbour, yg udh sering bantuin anak2 hollendrecht pindahan :D

maunya sih td malem pulang, ngepak.
tp ternyata sy lbih tempted tuk nginep d elvin (lg)
"celebrating" amam's b'day
which was also an excuse to play w3.. heheh
we (tiki, aji, elv, me) tried to defeat a team of 3 computers: easy,normal,insane, after 2nd try (or was it the 3rd?) we gave up n decrease the difficulty: 3 easy computers in one team.

sayang UC the undead tak bisa maen.. klo ada dia myb we could defeat the easy-normal-insane.
terakhir kali elv maen jd undead. tp yah.. uc's the one who's the most familiar with those zombies/horror creatures.
aji human (terpaksa juga)
tiki night elf
dan sy orc sperti biasa. im still a noob jd klo pindah2 race entar trainingny tdk epektip. lagian sy comfy dgn orc. after 45 minutes dan gempuran dr tim lawan, elv gave up n quitted ( :( ). tp akhirnya kami be-3 berhasil mengalahkan para computer2 itu sih. sy tak terlalu berperan sprti biasa :p dikit2 lah .. (kali)
abis laptop yg sy pke juga entah knp nge-lag banget.. so many times i hv to stop doing anything n stare at the screen. paling sering nge-lag klo pas lg "banyak aksi", wktu lg ngegempur markas lawan, weeee... seketika dunia terasa lambat berputar.

sebelumnya maen campaign dulu sih. baru smpe act II. Rexxar, dan that witch troll ketemu sm jaina defeating nagas n trying to show her that a bunch of "humans" is trying to infiltrate the orc's territory, which was considered as a violation of the human-orc pact.

td pagi beli cappuccino d coffee company
tp ternyata i still prefer the office's ethiopian coffee :p yg ternyata lbih enak klo diminum tanpa susu
dan td pagi willem the carrot guy from NL office datang dan meminta kopi. dan dia mention klo kita emg slalu pke barang2 fair trade :p oho.. k k.. good good
as long as its not my money.. i hv no objection in consuming FT goods :D

verhuizing tonight
i prefer LAN party



Look at me,
I'm as helpless as a kitten up a tree
And I feel like I'm clinging to a cloud,
I can't understand,
I get misty just holding your hand

Walk my way
And a thousand violins begin to play
Or it might be the sound of your hello, that music I hear
I get misty, the moment you're near

You can say that you're leading me on
But its just what I want you to do
Don't you realise how hopelessly I'm lost?
That's why I'm following you

On my own
Would I wander through this wonderland alone,
Never knowing my right foot from my left,
My hat from my glove,
I'm too misty and too much in love

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lets not write something depressing today

hari ini amam ultah (weee...)
and im trying to recover
of what reason still not sure

pagi ini nyampe kantor at 9.30 am, si african project manager, annelies de bruin dah ada. after greeting her i prepared some coffee. my office drinks ethiopian coffee, langsung dibawa dr ethiopia. ga tau sih apa mrk beli langsung dr petaninya, but i hope so. support fair trade ceritanya :D i mean klo organisasi2 mcm music mayday, sudah sepantasnya lah mrk supporting FT.
the communication & campaign guy, tom van de beek juga kerja buat fair food.

kemarin liat beras FT di albert heijn
buset mahal banget
250g for 1.17 euro klo ga salah

yah pls forgive me poor farmers, sy akhirnya beli beras albertheijn yg pandan, 1 kg for 90 cents
myb someday when im better of i'd buy those ft thingies

almost done with elvin's novel: murder on the gravy train by phyllis richman.
bener kata elvin, ni bukan novel detektif.
novelnya ttg good food and fine-dining ^^
with a touch of murder and scandal.

Chas Wheatley is a restaurant reviewer in washington
so she gets to eat at fine restaurants, and write about them
yg nulis novel ini juga restaurant reviewer, so... cara dia mendescribe makanannya cukup bikin ngiler =9~

the novelist tries to spice up the whole restaurant reviewing thing with murders, poisoned food, blackmailing, etc.
which i dont mind since the plot was convincing, tp juga ga sekeren agatha christie (or sidney sheldon dkk)
dan cerita ttg personal life-nya dia juga ga ngebosenin, ga terlalu exaggerated juga. Chas is mid-50's, widowed with one daughter, lily.

bagian akhir2 ini isinya how the whole scandal is unrolled
dan so far its not surprising
i prefer the eating and dining part better, heheh

i love books about food.
dulu wktu di tembagapura pernah nemu two, yg satu ngomongin daging (my year of meats by ruth l. ozeki), satunya roti (bread alone: a novel by judith r. hendricks.)

trus bbrp bulan yg lalu wktu nemenin kak dhanil cari oleh2 buat temenny di indo, kita juga nyari buku ttg kopi.
terus nemu "Black Gold: A Dark History of Coffee".

in short, ni buku nyeritain 'dark side'nya kopi (yg emg udh dark) , jd kayak the darker side of a dark thing -.-"
when something is popular, loved by a lot of people, and relatively cheap, like coffee for instance pasti entar banyak yg jd abusive towards it.. im talking about none other than "corporate greed"

yg jelas abis baca buku ini seorang pecinta kopi pasti mikirin lika-liku perjalanan bijih2 kopi dari saat dia di plantation, smpe ketika dituangin ke gelas styrofoam starbucks' misalnya.

karena itu, supportlah fair trade, hehe



it's tiring to cry,be angry,moan,whine at the same time
and it happens every month

help me im addictd
im addictd 2ur love
not its not a bad thing
its consuming my sanity
this is not healthy
why am i so ..
so addictd

i want 2 c u everyday
want 2 hear what u will say
on my clothes, my friends, the bills i hv to pay
its like every second its u i breathe
ur face is everywhere i see
and when u ignore me

feels like the world's coming to an end

im talking rubbish

can i save me from myself?

uLma this Eid ul-Fitr

After a quite depressing post about how pathetic I felt..
After being pissed off for not spending "the day" with him

Lebaran kemaren cukup menyenangkan :)
I should say it's the best I've ever had

and when they say everything will be okay if you have your friends around, its true

Minggu malem abis kerja me went to logger 94 (my shrine :p), tadinya udh ga mau sih, after having long-distance arguments (thru SMS n short phone calls) with bapak, tadinya yg bertekad untuk having Eid solitarily. But then kan Elvin said klo mo masak2 d tempatnya, coz ada tantenya yg mo dateng pas Eid. So, ya why dont give her a hand drpd being miserable alone.

Tp ternyata elvin sakit. so no cooking2 hari minggu itu.

Keesokan harinya, which would be Lebaran day, me, yussi, haryo, amam brgkt solat Id, Elvin tinggal d rumah, get more rest. Solat id taun ini sama kayak taun2 sebelumya, d olympia-stadion daerah oud-zuid. kami ke sana naek metro, smpe metro-station amstelveenseweg. Pas turun dr metro, dr metro yg arah berlawanan turun mak ipte ("IFTAAAAAAAAAA!"), trnyata dia janjian ma isrina. so i decided to wait with her there and separate myself from the boys.

Isrina (like always) took the wrong metro, but arrive not long after.

As we walked to the stadion, di seberang jalan ada two ladies yg lari2 dan berteriak2 sumthin... which turned out to be: Prima and Dita :D
WOW... all Hollendrecht ladies got together at the same time! cool.. :D

And I just felt like "its getting better and better"

Pas lagi jalan Ibu dan Bapak Ammar Basymeleh (:P) yg bersepeda liwat di samping.

Sampe d stadionnya altho harus wudhu lagi (karena d metro tak sengaja "menyentuh" haryo, euehuehue :p), Alhamdulillah tidak terlambat ngikutin solat Id. Kali ini orang2nya lebih crowded dr taun lalu (I think), and it was actually quite a moving moment. gw dah lamaaa banget rasanya ngeliat anak2 inholland itu. emg dah jarang k kampus sih, dan bawaannya klo k kampus pengen cepet2 cabut lg dr situ. jd ya ga smpet ketemu sapa2.
it was quite a pleasant thing to see those old faces again. im not particularly close with everybody, but its just, seeing those kids, fellow indonesian students, again made me feel quite sentimental (duile.. :P)
yea yea.. but its true

abis dari sana trus langsung k elvin, bersama ipte, rina dan bu'denya elvin dan keluarganya, yg ternyata MEMBAWA MAKANAN hehehe.. singkat kata, 80% ludes before noon :P

Masak2nya jadi sih, Elvin masak lodeh lagi (dan ada klepon kenyal yg lalu dibuang), tahu gejrot (ulma ga kebagian T_T), tempe goreng.. yg di-enjoy pula oleh Neysa yg joined a little later.. ada Vina, Tiki, Daniel dan pacarnya Lidia (or was it Lidya? or Lia? we... lupa =S). Arif Iman Santoso also came altho pas dia dateng udh ga gitu banyak yg tersisa (kacian..), lagian datengnya jam 11.

Jam 7 everybody left, dan seketika Logger 94 pun terasa sepi, huhuhu..

blm berakhir coz tengah malam ada LAN party :p
Warcraft 3-Reign of Chaos
peserta: Am.am (Orc) Elvin (Human) Tiki (Night Elf) Ulma (Undead) Yussi (Undead)
Mission: menggempur 2 computer teams with normal difficulty

yah tentu saja sbg noob sy tak berpartisipasi apa2 xD
malah adanya sy mempolusi markasnya elvin dgn mendirikan necropolis ke-2 d sana (yg pertama hancur digempur musuh :P).. dan minta2 sumbangan dr pr allies, hehehe..
sebelumnya dah ditraining bentar sih ma elvin. nyoba2 pke human, pke orc, night elf.

i like the game :D

tadi pagi sebelum brgkt k kantor nyoba maen lagi. tp pke orc. n i think i prefer those simple-minded orcs than the others :D

So it was a very nice Eid ul-Fitr, thank God. And I surely missed my family. dan tingkat kepopuleran menurun, menilik dr sedikitnya SMS-Lebaran yg sy terima xP jauh lebih sedikit dr tahun2 sebelumnya XD lol

yah yah.. what can I say..

Except for:

Mohon Maaf Lahir dan Batin!

Selamat Lebaran bagi semua yg merayakan :)

Minal 'Aidin wal-Faizin (which means "Semoga kita semua tergolong mereka yang kembali -ke fitrah- dan berhasil -dalam latihan menahan diri-"), dan...

Taqobbalallahu minna waminkum, which means "semoga Allah menerima amalku dan amal kalian"

Tuh Ma, inget ya... jangan nyebut doang tp ga tau artinya, heuheuhuehe.. (sumtimes im not even sure how to spell 'em out correctly, tp hopefully yg d atas bener :D)

ulma this Ramadhan

Ramadhan is a blessed month

im still running falling tumbling chasing my own tail

It's time to forgive and ask for forgiveness

(let's avoid people altogether)

When the believers' souls would be revived

(mine's barely breathing)

feels like it's dead inside

(mum.. dad.. help)

my (love)life is a sad story

i should've learned
that nothing good
comes out of anything
if i pushed too hard

i should've learned
the difference
between ignorance
and arrogance

i should've learned
times when i should stop,
let go,
and leave

go back to square one
and start again

Fajr Athan woke me. 6.25. missed sahur totally. i looked at my mobile. 4 missed calls. of course. last night. that was you.
and my head went around, spinning, darkness, thoughts, assumptions, negativities, churning.
that one thought. of you and that other girl. hurts me the most. oh yeah it happened again. of course, u've done it once, why not do it again. stupid karma is on action. like being sliced to little pieces by dozens of sharp piano strings. like trying to bend for all i could but being thrown back at a snap. and it hurts, like tiny molecular pains inside my head jumping up and down, millions, trillions of them, vibrating pains.
i was saying to myself, "God help me.. help me... help me..."
what should i expect?
i dont even listen to anything anymore
im at the bottom of the fire pit. burned roasted, while little evil creature pulling off my flesh, and it wont stop. my flesh grew back and more and more creatures came, ripping of everything, crunching munching away. i wonder if i would ever get accustomed to the pain. maybe hell have new tortures available for me whenever i get used to one.

the sky has a lighter shade of blue now
and sleep is not anywhere near
i stared to the ceiling
tried not to think of anything
stare... stare..stare ...

everything's happened, meaningless. everything's done, worthless.

he's my reason
he's my reason
he's my reason
i lost my reason

finally i reached for the phone
i thought i might call you
so i dialled your number
voice mail. dialled. voicemail. sade - smooth operator was playing. record.
disconnected. dialled. you answered (!). silence (for i couldnt say a thing). end. dialled. voicemail (u must've been trying to call me back). dialled. u picked up, i said nothing. ended. u called. i ignored.

sleep never come again. moon shine too. i think u're really gone now. i think it's done.

uuh ure so zwinky..

yep nyoba zwinky d tmpatnya elvin.
program chatnya si annoying my smiley central, my web search yg bisa nempel d tiap browser/window chat itu.
lucu sih avatar2nya
lebih lucu dr yahoo punya :P
terus wktu chat avatar orgnya (dan org yg kita ajak chat) tu floating d desktop.

yg annoyingnya cuma mesti bareng install my web search dan kroni2nya

ini zwinkynya elvin:

dan malem ini ppme will decide kapan lebarannya..

More doctors smoke camels than any other cigarette

picture source : Popular Science issue no. 3 - 1946

Before the 50's dokter2 di amrik kebanyakan ngerokok camel. True, ini cuma promosi2an camel aja wktu itu. cuma dia (Camel) ngelakuin surveynya beneran.. 113,597 doctors participated in this poll, dan merk yg paling mrk sebutin ya Camel.

yang pasti klo iklan kayak gini muncul lg skrg.. psti banyak yg protes. terutama non-smoker, dan dr kalangan dokternya juga. mana mau mrk diasosiasiin sama merk rokok skrg.

but the ad mention something bout t-zone, klo org ngerokok itu preferensinya bergantung sama ya.. mouth n throat. good taste smooth smoke.
dan memang benar klo sy prefer camel drpd other brands :p

agh but krn puasa ini, i managed to stay away from it. terakhir ngerokok was a week ago, marlboro light punya simone, n boy it tasted strange. mulut gw kyk dah ga mau nerima asep + rasa rokok lg. n epritime sumbody smokes too close, i would get this strange feeling in my stomach that i want to puke.

it might b a call for me to really quit it altogether. true, udh ngabis2in duit (duit oh duit T_T)... blm lg the health risk. Entah gara2 kebanyakan liat discovery channel, iklan2 d jalan (october is breast cancer awareness month), or gejala penuaan, lama2 jd suka kepikiran those awful diseases yg skrg kayaknya banyak banget =S

So i guess, lets hope that i can really quit smoking. i hope that he can really quit as well. sy tak ingin jd janda muda, heheh..

ah ya.. anybody interested in coming to the UN Night? (Nacht van de VN)
This Tuesday at Melkweg, Amsterdam starting from 6 pm. Ticket price 7,5 Euro.

and if u register to this website u might get a chance to get a ticket for free.

this is too cute

finally, a film bout me n my friends :p

masi buat summer 2007 sih filmnya..
In the new animated-adventure, RATATOUILLE (rat.a.too.ee), a rat named Remy dreams of becoming a great French chef despite his family's wishes and the obvious problem of being a rat in a decidedly rodent-phobic profession. When fate places Remy in the sewers of Paris, he finds himself ideally situated beneath a restaurant made famous by his culinary hero, Auguste Gusteau. Despite the apparent dangers of being an unlikely - and certainly unwanted - visitor in the kitchen of a fine French restaurant, Remy's passion for cooking soon sets into motion a hilarious and exciting rat race that turns the culinary world of Paris upside down.

Remy finds himself torn between his calling and passion in life or returning forever to his previous existence as a rat. He learns the truth about friendship, family and having no choice but to be who he really is, a rat who wants to be a chef.
aaaaah to twweeeeet :D i definetely got to watch this one.. ! uhuhu..

light a million candle

The Light a Million Candles campaign is comprised of a 60-second public-service announcement, print advertisements, a viral email, and a web site. Visit www.lightamillioncandles.com, and offer your support by lighting a virtual candle and challenging the world’s governments, law-enforcement agencies, financial institutions, Internet Service Providers, and payment associations to work together to tackle this problem. The goal is to collect one million pledges by the end of 2006.

No further reason why. just click.

saya kerja di sini

what do I do?
im doing an internship as a project assistant. dari september akhir kmaren.
ngapain project assistant?
so far sih.. bantuin bikin proposal buat minta funding, ngumpul2in evaluasi dr cabang2 yg laen, bikin summary-nya, motokopi :P bikin swot, jd notulen d meeting, standar anak intern.
knp magang?
well i thought of finding a job. tp susye deh :p
apalagi dgn saya yg sok ngundur2 kelulusan. (yeah.. i prefer to not graduate then going back to indo)
well.. mixed  between wanting to be with him longer, and wanting to have more work-experience here.
yea.. the first one being the most dominant one :p

why music mayday?
i saw their ad on a website for internships. after 3 months of no-success in looking a proper full-time job, i started to look at internship possibilities.
their website says something about cross-culture, youth, and music.
I've worked with music-related cultural NGO before, and the job title 'Project Assistant' seemed nicer than a mere 'Stagiaire'. So i expected a more challenging tasks. which thankfully came true. (Photocopying also became more challenging as their machine was quite old and seemed to like to choke itself with paper).

You still work at the restaurant?
yep... thursday, sat n sunday. but last week the manager told me to work one more day, friday. so... yippeee.. (not)
Aren't you tired?
yep.. began to feel the effect of working 7 days a week. (office days r mon thru fri) but hopefully when the fasting's over  it wont be this bad.

how's mr. boyfriend?
just have his birthday today. but we did not plan anything special. nothing, in fact. i think im gonna go to the movie with my colleague from the restaurant. she just came to the Netherlands and desperately needed some fun. she asked the wrong person though.
so mr. boyfriend stays at home... sleeping

what time are you gonna go home?
umm approx. an hour from now :)

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myb i should title my blog: life is not beautiful :p

"If it's not with you.. There is no thing that makes wanna settle down..
I thought it was a bad cough.. But never knew how much illusions hide a torture
Lonesome & forsaken with no gratitude.. Who's goin' to tell, devotion's not your problem

It's me against a wardrobe
Focused on the pain to see how we can get along

Doing things, getting better
I'll move on

Together.. The more I try the less I care about it
Together.. And if you don't see yourself in the mirror, forget what you did
Together.. The more I try the less I care about it

I'm giving up my conscience for another
The only one I want is you

Things I wouldn't do.. Try to treat me like a friend, get another late call
I'll lose you for another
Cause you can't believe how much your pleasure is a factor
Writing down the logic of my solitude
As far as I'm concerned I'd like to leave it random
I'm acting like an orphan

Let me get to know you better to make me less attracted

i should turn on the answering machine now

O you who believe! Fasting is ordained for you, as it was ordained for those before you, that you may attain piety. Fast a certain number of days, but those among you who are sick or traveling may fast the same number of days at a later time. But for those who are able to fast and do not, there is still redemption in the feeding of a needy person. However, for those who are given to increased virtue on their own accord, it is more valuable for them, though fasting is far better for you, if you only knew.

-Qur'an, Al-Baqara, Surah 2:183-84

Puasa day 13

sahur: nasi putih + teri, tahu, sosis turki goreng + s. goreng terong bikinan ibu kosnya chauft

bangun 8.15 siap2 cabut, sepanjang jalan udh ngerasain keram di daerah pelvis which continued smpe gw nympe kantor dan duduk

its a long day,n not shiny at all. tp gw finally nyelesein evaluation report, mnta dicomment, trus skalian ma swot analysis juga. smbil baca2 n ngedit2 proposal juga. abis ini bikin summary dr evaluationnya.

td skitar jam 4-an pergi ke albert heijn bntar. beli basic necessities (roti jagung, vegetarian pate, tomat, pisang, magere yoghurt, avocado, keju)

shopping is just no fun
eating is no fun
sleeping is no fun
being at home is no fun

yg salah sama proposal: they dont attract ppl at the introduction.

why english ppl likes to go to australian whn they're bored of their own country?

if ure not happy then im not happy

i think i'll just stay here until iftar. which will b 7.07 pm

i know ure laughing behind my back
i know ure spreading my mistakes to everyone
i know ure judging me

im sorry that im such a boring person
im sorry that im no fun

this is the day when haryo went missing, he could not be reached via his mobile when he's supposed to work today. and his housemates are nowhere near their own phone

but at least its full moon tomorrow




Not today, but yesterday. Chauft woke me up at 8 am, I had to go to work. But my eyes just wouldnt open, n it felt that both of them were burning, my head hurted a little. Capek banget, and my body just told me to stay in bed n go back to sleep

11 am bangun, masi pengen tidur, liat hape, its on 'silent' 3 missed calls already, from music mayday, isrina n ifta.

no no dont want to wake up now, i just tell the office that im ill today.. i'll call em later .. oh shit no credits left in my phone.. oh i'll figure out how im gonna tell em later

3.30 pm my bf's mobile rang.. its ifta.. (my mobile was still on silent) asking me to meet up later in the evening, with the rest from the (ex-Nieuwersluishof) Hollendrecht girls (rina, herself, prima n dita)

was my fault anyway that i didnt sleep as soon as i got to chauft's house. It was late already when i arrived, i dont think that i slept more than two hours before hving to get up again for our morning meal. n then when it's done it's already a quarter before six (n i had to wake up at 7 am or 7.30)

good job, ulma!

however, the evening-out was nice :) its been a long time since the five (minus chitra, dian, vina n citra) of us sit down eat n talk together. n its the first time that i brought bapak to sit at the table with the girls.

While shoving down fried squids into my mouth, my mind flew back to the time i was still living in N-159. So far its the best house with the best ppl to live with for me.

sad thing is, that i let it (them) slipped away just like that... or, i let myself letting them slipped away

buat rina, take care nak
buat prima, jgn selingkuh terus :p hehehe
buat mba dita, take care juga
buat mak ipta, gambate!
buat dian, sukses n take care
buat chitra (wherever u r), forgive me for the words that i said n didnt say
buat citra, hoo lama tak berjumpa
buat vina, heh you owe us one evening-out together!

good news

According to our calculations you will die at 11:03 pm on Friday, January 30th 2054.

Your age at the time of death will be approximately 69 years old.

Which is in 17290 days time.

69 is not bad

and elv said that the north&south pole will melt in 2070
so its good that i die before it :p

puasa day 3

You may have a more difficult time than usual concentrating on your job, ulm. Your thinking might be a little fuzzy, and you could be easily distracted.

Daily Horoscope Sept 26 - www.astrocenter.com

kunci kantor + rumah ilang :'(
td lupa sahur.. huks
entar bantuin pacar pindahan (huks)

puasa taon ini berasa lbi berat =/

*masi mengerjakan summary proyek taun lalu*
kenalan ma bbrp org kntor
yg senior2 lg pd training&//cuti. jd cuma yg junior2 aja. ketemu ma sesama intern dan anak HoInho, Abel Stomp.. dia juga puasa ternyata ..tak semenakutkan fotonya :p - ket. harusny tiap anak baru bikin kyk introduction gitu, trus diemail k org2 kantor beserta fotonya. sy blm bikin :p
dan org2 lain.. eva (yg punya temen, yg barusan didiagnosa kanker dan akhirnya nulis buku, ttg brbagai macam wig yg harus dia pake gara2 rambutnya harus dicukur abis buat kemo, dan akhirny develop different personalities according to the wigs (ada 9 wig), dan salah satu personalitynya itu dikasih nama 'Oema'.. which would be the main reason why Eva told me the story bout her friend)

..dan satu cowo botak berkacamata yg sangat yellow (dr rambutnya, smpe kulitnya).. whose name i forgot -_-'

ga bs dengerin accuradio, ga bs dengerin vh1 radio :( plugin-ny tak jalan.. msn radio bisa sih, tp trus bosen. akhirnya install foobar dan donnlot2 lagu dr gmail (transfer2an lagu n file lewat sini guna banget yak.. jadi serasa punya virtual hard drive gtu).
cuma 28 songs yg sy ambil sesuai dgn mood saat ini yg agak2 mellow (laper soalny -.-)
01. Stina Nordenstam - [And She Closed Her Eyes #06] Little Star
02. Stina Nordenstam - [And She Closed Her Eyes #11] Something Nice
03. Andrea Bocelli - [Amore #04] Mi Manchi (Feat. Kenny G)
04. Andrea Bocelli - [Amore] Andrea Bocelli - Amore - 02 - Besame Mucho
05. Andrea Bocelli - [Amore #06] Solamente Una Vez
06. Sonu Nigam, Sunidhi Chauhan - [Fanaa #04] Dekho Na
07. Dario Marianelli - [Pride And Prejudice #10] Leaving Netherfield
08. Tori Amos - You Belong To Me (Mona Lisa Smile)
09. 10. The Best thing For You
10. Coldplay - [A Rush Of Blood To The Head #11] Amsterdam
11. Hiroko Kokubu - [FINAL FANTASY X-2 PIANO COLLECTION #12] Eternity ~Memories of Light and Waves~
12. Janet Jackson-Every Time
13. Holly Valance - [Footprints #11] Naughty Girl
14. Utada Hikaru - Final Distance
15. Utada Hikaru - First Love
16. Copeland - Coffee
17. Copeland - Sleep
18. A Perfect Circle - 3 Libras
19. Babyface & Des'ree - Fire
20. Bruce Springstein - Secret Garden
21. John Legend - [John Legend #07] Stay With You
22. Pinback - [Blue Screen Life (Japan) CD1 #02] Concrete Seconds
23. The Postal Service - [Give Up #02] Such Great Heights
24. MALIQ & D' ESSENTIAL - [1ST #14] 14_Bonus_Track[1]
25. Jason Hayes - [World Of Warcraft #02] The Shaping Of The World (Exclusive Track)
26. Jason Hayes - [World Of Warcraft #07] Seasons Of War (Intro Movie)
27. Minoru - merindukanmu
28. Damien Rice - [Unplayed Piano #01] Unplayed Piano (Chris Lord-Alge Mix)

trimakasi kpd teman2 yg merasa menyumbang lagu2 tersebut ^^

kmaren bikin kolak hohoho ^O^
lumayan sukses ;p
sayang pisangny blm mateng.. jd agak keras gtu.. yah dianggep ubi lah :D trus kykny santanny kbanyakan.. kayaknya.. altho kata org2 yg nyoba sih enak2 aja (ga tau lg klo itu cuma buat menyenangkan perasaan sy saja)


bingung emang tiap taun selaluuu aja ada 2 pendapat soal kapan begin/end-nya bulan Ramadhan

tadi ngecek on various websites bout the moon phase..
dan emg ternyata new moon tu klo diliat dr amsterdam sini (Lat. N52.37;Long. E4.93--> bner ga ya? :P ) harusnya kmaren at 1.42 pm, jd ya.. ok, 1 Ramadhannya today.
Dan sy baru tau itu siang ini (mksudny baru yakin. td malem dah dikasi tau ma Bapak, klo PPME bilang 1 Ramadhan started Saturday), setelah menghabiskan satu piring nasi+sayur-rasa-aneh+tuna+surimi chunks(yg ternyata ada sakenya -__-") dan segelas kopi

beberapa hari yg lalu liat d islamic finder, tgl 1 ramadhannya 24 september. trus liat kbri-nl, announcementnya juga 1 ramadhan = 24 september. yo uwis..

trus td ngecek2 islamicfinder, ternyata mrk announce kyk gtu ngikutin tanggalan yg berlaku d mekkah.. (dalam kurung, itu tanggalan yg dr software mrk yg 'athan' itu) meanwhile klo ke websitenya sih, hari ini tu Sabtu tgl 23 september 2006 / 1 Ramadhan 1427.. yikes, okay..

ya emang sih, kalender hijri jalan gitu aja.. dr jaman nabi Muhammad, teratur 30 hari, 30 hari, 30 hari.. sejak Hijrahnya mereka. and myb the moon itself fasenya yg skrg ma 1427 years ago udh beda gitu (mungkin ga ya? :p)

kbri dr mana? well i guess ngikutin mui di indo.. or iya, ngikutin org2 arab yg pke kalender Hijriah..

quote from Answers.com
the beginning of Ramadan (as with all months of the Islamic calendar) is traditionally based on a sighting of the hilal — the crescent, or new, moon. If it is reported by a witness in front of a committee of elders by the evening of the 29th day of the previous month, Sha'aban, then Ramadan starts on day 30. If not — because the sky is cloudy or the moon set before the sky grew dark enough to see it — then Sha'aban lasts 30 days and Ramadan starts the next day. Western countries are more likely to begin Ramadan a day earlier than eastern countries, since moonset occurs later farther west and there's more chance of the moon being seen on the 29th of Sha'aban.
well klo mo diterapin di sini sih wktu tgl 29 sha'ban, which would be yesterday, bulan tu blm kliatan.. coz moonsetnya jam 7.31pm meanwhile sunset around 7.39 pm erm.. dan emg masi bulan baru gtu, jd ya ga kliatan apa2

binun ah

ah ya su.. whichever we choose.. yg penting niatnya
moga2 aja gw taun ini bener2 ngejalaninnya
taun lalu empty/kosong/hampa gtu soalnya

met puasa :)

vrijdag is introductiedag

kira2 12 jam yg lalu gw masi d jalan ke Music Mayday d Elandsstraat.
yep, hari ini introduction day gitu
perkenalan :D

yg jelas
task list gw langsung banyak xD
tp sy senang.. dah lama ga kerja make otak gini :D hahaha
biasa nguli mulu soalnya :p

1. bikin report summary project mrk taon lalu (skalian buat mereka, trus buat gw juga pengenalan ke kegiatan mereka)
2. bikin SWOT analysis dr event taun lalu
3. baca proposal buat taun ini, learn from it n improve stuffs (klo bisa)
4. bikin time plan/agenda buat kegiatan artist exchange
5. bikin afwasbeurtlijst yg baru, huahuhuah..
jd tiap minggu mrk ada daftar piket gtu. sapa yg nyuci piring2 abis tiap lunch

dokumen2 mrk some ad yg written in dutch. tp InsyaAllah no prob, skalian gw mempercanggih bahasa belanda (cieh)

gedung kantornya bekas sekolahan..tua.. huhuh yg jelas klo di indo cocok banget jd lokasi rumah hantu.. x)
ya iya gitu.. tu gedung gede nyaris tak terawat
dan jumat tadi sueepiiii banget. td cuma ada atasan saya bu Brechtje Smidt,dan CEOnya, pak Ruben Collin. pada masi muda sih, generasi 70's lah..

slese 'ngantor' jam 6

trus pulang


tempe-bwg putih-bwg bombay-brussels sprout-broccoli-kaldu-tumis2-cabe dahsyat pak chauft-bumbu jadi (salah banget.. gara2 yg terakhir ini rasany jd agak kaco.. gw kirain bakalan asem-manis.. eee tau2 kok kyk ada rasa karinya gini????? xp)
yah.. edible sih
cuma agak aneh :'( hiks..

skrg mnunggu suami pulang :p

- 1/2 jam kmudian -

omiGod.. sepi banget.. mbak2 pd kerja, satu udh tidur
even virtual ppl r none
mo bales2 email yo males :D
tidur aja lah..
Vin if u read this after work, gimme a misscall yak :D

sparks- coldplay

Did I drive you away?
I know what you’ll say,
You say, “Oh, sing one we know,”
But I promise you this,
I’ll always look out for you,
That’s what I’ll do.

I say “oh,”

My heart is yours,
It’s you that I hold on to,
That’s what I do,
And I know I was wrong,
But I won’t let you down,

(Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah, yeah I will, yes I will…)

I say “oh,”

I cry “oh.”

Yeah I saw sparks,
Yeah I saw sparks,
And I saw sparks,
Yeah I saw sparks,
Sing it out.

La, la, la, la, oh…

hehe i used to cry when i hear this song :)
lg nyetel 'my station' d launchcast n this song came out

1st year in holland, i had this huge crush on somebdy, hehe.. n we both love coldplay, n this song was a reminder of him, coz at that time it seemed sooo impossible for me to get anywhere near him n i used to play it over n over again just to savour the deep-melancholic sphere of the song. dan jadiny dulu wktu anak itu ngajak nonton konser coldplay, i almost object (next to surprised) coz gw bakal denger lagu ini diplay live n i'd b watching it with my hugest crush n i was afraid i wouldnt b able to control myself, heauheuhuah.. but anyway we did watch coldplay n i dont regret it at all! :)

n now, this song still reminds me of that crush i had 3 years ago, but the main theme of the song still applies to me n my situation whenever i feel guilty or did something wrong to my current bf or just feeling melancholic :)

its really a sweet song.. hail to coldplay n chris m.


Date: Friday, 15 September, 2006 3:39 PM
Subject: Hai Ganteng..
Message: Aku salah satu penggemarmu...
Hati"ya di indonesia...
Jaga Ortu...en kakak...
Ini aku salah satu kakakmu..
Kuliah yang bener ya....jangan lupa jg berdoa
Sampai jumpa nanti di indonesia..

that message was somehow mysteriously on my 'sent message' folder in friendster
I didnt send it
n what's with the onta name? i didnt even know who that guy is..!
hulp! i got spammers in my own account
(moso bapak yg ngirim pke account saya? xp hahaha.. )

other freaky accident also befalls my dearest bespren elbin n eh.. an Oxford graduate

n this I took it from the nyt
"I am deeply sorry for the reactions in some countries to a few passages of my address which were considered offensive. These were in fact quotations from a medieval text, which do not in any way express my personal thought."

POPE BENEDICT XVI , referring to a speech he made last week that stirred anger across the Muslim world

bangun tidur, ku terus online..

nggak sih, tadi bangun terus ngecek sms, nunggu sms dr nyokap

trus ke dapur bikin kopi, sarapan beschuit pke sele coklat dan sele stroberi

trus baru ol :D

n stuffs that interest me this morning (udh ga pagi lagi sih):
- game monopoly yg paling baru, gamepiecenya includes french fries McD, starbucks coffee, motorola razr v3, dan toyota prius, heuheuhe.. trus yg landmarknya juga bangunan2 yg ad skrg gtu. n u got $2 million for a round, huhu..
- Kertas dr eek domba.. and here's a link if u ever want to make it urself, hehe
- giving a taste of revenge to stingrays a game contributed to steve irwin's death (RIP, mate)
- a friend's q on a case-study of idealism in international relations (omG -.-")
- lagu tumhi dekho naa :D (playlist isinya cuma dekho naa n tumhi dekho naa.. hauhauhuahuha) yg enak dr lagu ini? ada pianonya di depan :p tp lagunya kelamaan sih..
dan di bawah i present to you.. tumhi dekho naa dr pelm kabhi alvida na kehna :D yg nyanyi sharukh khan lohh *LOL XD

n form the NYT: MEN'S fashion fall 2006 xpm, the pope's apologizing on his previous speech on moslems, the rise of chinese's 'Google',

abc's new soap yg niruin betty la fea: the ugly betty (omiGod -.-")

leonardo di caprio meets the chunky matt damon and jack nicholson under martin scoresese's banner