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so finally israel announced gencatan senjata, setelah sebulan lebih bales2an roket,missiles, rudal, apapun namanya..
makan nyawa, makan properti..
d nytimes bilangnya ini political gamble, buat bush, buat pm-nya israel, buat UN juga.. soalny slama ini unifil ga terlalu ngebantu banyak.. UN sndiri ga gtu berperan besar kykny.. dan those "big" countries yg ngerasa kl mrk ga do anything dua negara ini (dan dunia) ga bisa apa2.. while hezbollah doesnt give a shit about them, hehe..
its like the world was struck dumbfounded by the war of these two countries
klo ditanya, gw ga mihak negara mana2
but i choose to be on the humanity side.

malam ini langit cerah dan cuaca berkisar 15 drajat celcius

dan ulma ketagihan lagi mendengarkan dekho na xD

DEKHO NA
(cewe) yeh saazish hai buundo.n kii
The raindrops are conspiring
koii khwaahish hai chup chup sii
with my hidden desire.
yeh saazish hai buundo.n kii
The raindrops are conspiring
koii khwaahish hai chup chup sii
with my hidden desire.
dekho na...
Just see...

(cowo) hawaa kuchh haule haule
The soft, gentle breeze
zubaan se kya kuchh bole
is saying something extraordinary
kyo.n duurii hai ab darmiyaan
why is this distance between us?
dekho na...
Just see...

phir na hawaa'e.n ho.ngii itnii besharam
Never again will the winds be so blunt,
phir na Dagmag Dagmag ho.nge ye qadam
or my feet so unsteady beneath me.
haay
Alas...
phir na hawaa'e.n ho.ngii itnii besharam
Never again will the winds be so blunt,
phir na dag-mag dag-mag ho.nge ye qadam
or these steps so unsteady.
(cewe)saawan yeh siidha nahii.n khufiyaa baRa
This isn't a straightforward rain; there's something secretive about it;
kuchh to baraste hu'e kah rahaa
it's saying something as it falls down.

(cowo)samjho na...
Try to understand it...

(cewe)hawaa kuchh haule haule
The soft, gentle breeze
zubaan se kya kuchh bole
is saying something extraordinary
kyo.n duurii hai ab darmiyaan
why is this distance between us?

(cewe n cowo gntian) dekho na...
Just see...

(cewe) jugnuu.n jaisii chaahat dekho jale bujhe
Watch love, like fireflies, flare and fade away.
miiTHii sii mushkil hai koii kya kare
It's such a sweet tragedy; what can anyone do?
jugnuu.n jaisii chaahat dekho jale bujhe
Watch love, like fireflies, flare and fade away.
miiTHii sii mushkil hai koii kya kare
It's such a sweet tragedy; what can anyone do?
(cowo) ho.nTHo.n kii arzii aisii THukaraa'o na
Don't deny the plea from my lips;
saa.nso.n kii marzii ko jhuTHlaa'o na
don't doubt the desire in my breath.

(cewe) chhuu lo na...
Touch me...

(cowo)hawaa kuchh haule haule
The soft, gentle breeze
zubaan se kya kuchh bole
is saying something extraordinary:
kyo.n duurii hai ab darmiyaan
why is this distance between us?

(b.vocal, trus si cewe) dekho na...
Just see...

ini lagu sweet skaliiiii :D
hehe tolong sy ketagihan dengerinnya :p
dont mind the rather crappy clip (altho ga kuat jg ngeliat si cewe yg so pasrah gtu :p)
oh elvin.. this song is such a virus :D

hmm so my bf has now moved into my place
its rather weird at first
its like he's entering my territory
i mean.. that's my bed (skrg sy hrs pke bed yg satunya, hiks..)
trus ga bs lagi dengerin lagu dan mati lampu sblm tdr
coz my bf always reads bfore he goes to bed
which means
lampu nyala
but emg sy bs tdr dlm sgl kondisi
tp tp
aneh aja now i will sleep more with the lights on
huks

ah iya, nesnos.. heppibidday ya ^^

TURTLE POWER!


hehehe.. :D
love you, raphaello, donatello, michaelangelo, and leonardo!!!
yea... cowabunga!!!

yg bisa diliat dr teasernya?
it'll b an animation, not puppet kyk film2 yg dulu.. altho i love their puppet version as well as the 2d animation one.
they are slimmer..
while di kartun mereka yg pertama (1986-1996), those turtles r a little bit chubby.. kbanyakan makan pizza n minum cola :D
musuhnya sayang ga diliatin .. huhuh...
yg gw inget sih wktu movie TMNT yg dulu2.. yg maenin si shredder ganteng ^^
awww..
splinter jg ga diliatin.. i wonder how theyre going to animate the master.

many thanks to elvin for the info ;D

the fortune cookie, said...

Your life is like a rollercoaster right now. Don't worry, it will calm down.

Yeah I know every fortune cookie always says a nice thing.

And I need one nice sentence to start my work at resto kami tercinta, Tanjung Sari.

Tapi dah dua hari terakhir ini aku dapet pesen yg sama from my fortune cookies :p

But anyway, skrg buat gw my life is more like whitewater rafting :D arung jeram..
Arusnya deres, banyak batu, gw sering kecipratan kena air, kadang tangan gw pegel ngedayung, pengen berenti, ato ga kadang kebalik.. but i know i hv to keep going.
I dunno where the current gonna take me, small waterfalls or big un.. kl salah jalan mesti dayung balik. but i hate going back, so i rarely did that.. hehehe tabrak teruss..

belum lagi klo misalny someone decided to pop into my raft, or me pindah perahu ke raft orang. trus tiba2 yg satu pengen ngedayung ke arah lain, ato satu decided to lag. jadinya tu raft malah muter2 ga jelas.. ato yg parah malah kebalik.. trus trus.. heheh :p

klo dipanjang2in bisa panjang sih.
but back to the fortune cookie.. klo misalny idup gw kyk roller coaster.. kykny lebih enak. tracknya keliatan. bisa siap2 pas mo ngedeketin loop nya dah gt klo pas dapet rollercoaster yg seru, asik tu.. memacu adrenalin.. tapi tau klo kita tetep save. and i would perhaps not want it to calm down.. soalny kl calm down jadinya bosen.. ga seru, hehehe

hari ini ada gay parade di amsterdam.. i missed four years of 'em slama gw disini.. hehe tp males juga ah
i've seen enough gays here. pake nonton paradenya sgala..
lagian td juga kerja
sebelum kerja nemenin mba rini ke kruidvat.. da diskon banyak gtu deh. me akhirny beli payung. mba rini kyk beli alat2 basic buat bikin kue gtu. sama hand-mixer. trus beli piso juga. trus... some snack.. dll.

paginya ngobs ma temen gw smu, si nizar, gw crita kl sehari yg lalu gw cuma kerja pagi (gantiin kak riva d gift shop). jadiny siang udh pulang. dan wktu itu tu gw yg binun gt mo ngapain. biasany kan sore gw kerja lagi. tp hari itu tu engga.. jadinya.. ga enak rasanya matahari masi keliatan tp udh pulang.. hehehe
ksimpulan temen gw: gw kesepian
hahaha
masa ? :P
gw kirain itu artinya gw emg suka kerja
tp kata temen gw, gw brusaha lari dr rasa sepi, makanya gw kerja mulu
buset..
"soalnya orang normal tu pasti seneng ga usah kerja"
er.. im trying to pay the bills, zar :D

knp masih begini2 saja?....

need to know.. i don't wanna know. already know... i've seen the signs. i watch you as you pull yourself away from me. can't believe.. i wanna believe. how can i believe? .. you're making me doubt. i thought i knew you, i don't even know myself. i'm losing faith.. i'm losing all faith. you're breaking my heart.. breaking my heart again. i wanna fight.. afraid to fight. why don't i fight? and make you see. i hold my breath, and disappear inside myself. i'm losing.. strength, i'm losing all strength. i'm losing.. you

like music through my years

Various music/artist influences through the years,.. grouped based on schooling periods.. those inside the brackets are the ppl who influence me :)

elementary school
bimbo - pop music awal 90's - elton john - boyz II Men (nyokap, bokap, tv)

junior high school
space - offspring - oasis - wannadies - that thing you do - spice girls - backstreet boys - Garbage (kya, tv, prambors, Romeo&Juliet oST)
nirvana - RADIOHEAD (ok cOMPUTer, Anggi)
ALT 90's era!

high school
Reza - dewa - rhcp - gnr - Muse - padi - cokelat - NAIF - (friends, radio stations) - cLASSIC JAZZ - Sarah McLachlan (neysa :))

college years
hoobastank - Ben Folds Five - MEW (bro) - Glen F. (nyokap, tp untung cuma bentar, hehe) - A Perfect Circle (Yokko) - Slipknot, Korn, Marilyn Manson (Isrina) - Coldplay, Dashboard Confessional, The Weepies, Sufjan Stevens, Sondre Lerche (Dee) - Doves (Kai) - rock/alt - Bollywood (elvin :D) - Buddha Bar, Chill out music (nina, köln; lina) - john legend (indra marpaung) - dLL.
*basically this period, thanks to the internet, saya mendalami lagi main music influences di hidup saya, dan di hidup orang2 lain :p

post college years
??? diperkirakan bakal lbih suka yg basic2.. classical jazz psti masi suka, yg ada piano2nya sy pasti suka, chill out sumtimes, rock/alt jg yg ga gt GONJRENG2.. yg jelas jd fans setia radiohead dan thom yorke smpe tua ^^

rainy songs

ulm's rainy day songs:
1. Ben Folds Five - Raindrops Keep Falling on My Head
2. Sunny Day Real Estate - Rain Song
3. Jamie Cullum - Singin' in the Rain

and i still see myself as a mouse

<:3)~*

coz if i hv to make an "image" in my head, of the person that I want to be in the future, I'd be disappointed with myself if i couldnt be that person

better safe than sorry they'd say

Other rain-related songsthat i know :
Guns N Roses - November Rain
Travis - Why Does it Always Rain on Me? (theme song me n lina wktu magang)
Kane - Rain on Me (dun like Kane)
Garbage - Only Happy when It Rains
Prince - Purple Rain (yet im sure that a rock band used to sing this song.. tp lupa which band)

Oh and they just blasted Beirut
you know, we used to do things together
talk and laugh until the dawn breaks
we would go to those places we nver went before
and told things about ourselves that we never told anyone before

you would rush from work just to chat with me
and i would postpone doing my homework just to be with you
i would glad to share everything with you
and you would take my hand and told me that
everything´s gonna be ok

out in the snow you would run
wearing nothing but slippers
and then i would burst into tears
thanked you for not letting me go

its all bumblebees and flowers
sugar cream, vanilla marshmallows

and i could say
to completely let go and surrender
really felt good

i miss you, light

im that creature
crouching in the dark
afraid of the light
cant stand the light

altho sometimes i miss it
radiant bright shining light
it hurts my eyes just to look at it

but sometimes..
i went outside
and close my eyes
absorb the light
the warmth
flowing inside me

n i would be tempted to open my eyes

thats when everything changes

my body would reject the light
for a while im blinded

then i fell
closing my eyes i crawled
back to the dark
holding my knees
sweat pours allover
i started to shiver
i peek
once a while
to the distant light
n then crawled back
to the darkness n beyond

kayak isi hati mahluk2 d 'the descent' hehehe

ujan..

"you are now clear from the heatwave"

ja ja.. slamat tinggal amsterdam panas.. selamat tinggal rok dan kaos.. selamat tinggal warm sunshine

dah dua hari ini, teman lama kita, hujan, jadi sering berkunjung "hi alll.. im baaackkk!!", katanya :D

walo masih rada mood2an, berenti bentar, trus lanjut, terus berenti lagi, hari ini ujan d amsterdam lumayan deres. well besides org2 yang jadi rushing around, i didnt really see any frowns from other ppl's faces on the streets. so i guess the rain is pretty welcomed, if not pretty ignored here.. hehe

for me the rain is like an old acquaintance. u'll nvr know when u bump into them in your life course. sometimes a pleasant thing, sometimes not. myb im almost indifferent to it, but myb sometimes not.

tp tadi cuek aja sih gw jalan d tengah kota, keujanan, basah.. yg rasanya enak, dah lama ga keujanan..
kl d kota mungkin ga ada, tp kl pas lg jalan d deket2 hutan (buatan kl d belanda sih), psti lngsung kecium bau tanah dan rumput basah.. hmmm..

ada org yg ga tahan ujan, keujanan dikit lngsung sakit.
ada yg ga suka ujan soalnya bikin baju basah, dandanan rusak.
ada yg nganggep ujan ngeganggu, soalnya bisa bikin rencana/acara jd batal/berantakan
temen gw juga pernah bikin cerpen ttg ujan gtu. ya crita roman campur filosofis, ttg si cowo yg suka ujan2an, his awe to the rain, dan si cewe yg sebel ma ujan. ujan tu part of life kok. ya i cant be poetic like my friend there. but i more or less agree with the guy :D

ya klo ujan, pke payung. klo ga bawa payung, salah sendiri.. carilah tempat berteduh , lari, ato just walk n enjoy the rain :D (thats what i did, hehe) bole smbil nyanyi juga..

its not the end of the world.
ehm kecuali kl ujan trs yg ngakibatin banjir bah gt kl ya.. na'udzubillahimindzaliik
ujan itu refreshing, dan bau rumput dan tanah yg abis kena ujan tu buat gw punya efek nenangin (hehe.. ga tau lg klo bau t** kena ujan gmn)
dan ya.. masi untung diguyur ujan yg normal2 aja.. ga terlalu banyak, dan juga ga terlalu sedikit.

dr kecil gw udh appreciate ujan. soalny tinggal d hutan :P kl ga ada ujan, pohon2 tu kasian banget jd pd kecoklatan. bukan kering, tp kena debu jalan. jaman2 gw dulu, jalan (d kalimantan) tu masi jalan tanah, yg debunya kemana2 tiap ada mobil lewat. akibatnya debu2 itu terus nempel dan nutupin daun2 dan ranting2 dan batang2 dari pohon2 di pinggiran jalan. tp abis ujan turun.. weee... bagus banget, its like the colors of the forest jumped back to life. gw ngebayangin psti pohon2 itu seneng udh keguyur air ujan.

wktu itu gw tinggal d Sangatta, Kalimantan Timur, di tengah2 tropical forest Borneo. Jadi legenda nama Sangatta itu begini:
Sangatta was derived from two words "Seng" yg artinya kucing, dan "Atta" yg artinya sungai.
...
akhir cerita ada kucing (kucing raksasa) kecebur sungai.. hehehe.. dan semenjak itu TKP-nya diberi nama Sangatta..
XD
well thats what my Geography teacher told me when I was at the 2nd grade of Elementary School. I cant remember most of the story :p hehe..

ya intinya, saya senang karena kangen saya sama hujan sudah terlampiaskan :)

oh ya, i think im gonna start to put my reading list here again. Setelah sekian lama not touching non-FD books, dan jg gr2 emg lg gencar2ny bekerja :p bbrp minggu yg lalu i started with Ann Rice's Vampire Lestat. tp baru setengahnya (LESTAT'S A BI! i wonder if tom cruise is one as well, hehe.. ya stelah gw baca2 tu novel, emg panteslah klo si TC yg meranin dia). Baru sampe si Lestat yg bersama ibunya (yg ia jadikan vampir) berusaha melarikan diri dari 'Queen of the Damned' (Aaliyah! hehe..) dan the Damneds nya dan their angelic-faced leader, smbil berusaha nyelamatin Nicolas (kekasihnya si Lestat).

trus ma pacar saya (hore.. now i dare to mention 'a boyfriend' here) dikasih The Drifters by James A. Michener, which I think is a good one as well. Storytellingnya unik, and he succeeded in converting the flow of the story according to the different characters portrayed in the book. Gw jg yg ini baru baca smpe chapter 4. Totalnya ad 12 chapter dan dari satu sampai enam tu nyeritain the characters in the story, yg zo wie zo life pathnya tu bersinggungan di sebuah kota kecil di Spanyol, yg pantainya bagus, multi-cultural (ppl from northern europe, western europe, ppl from the states yg avoid wamil), bernama Torremolinos (kinda like tropical Amsterdam, maybe :D).

Next, td saya ke AKO, beli kartu ultah buat housemate saya yg ultah ga tau kapan. tp rasanya udh lewat soalnya 2 hari yg lalu dia bawa tart slagroom mocca ke rumah :p so i assume that day should be her birthday. Udh gtu sekalian make boekenbon hasil kerja d AEC last umm October? my last boekenbon..

beli: Night by Elie Wiesel (udh agak penasaran ma ni buku smenjak dia jd buku terpilihnya Oprah's Book Club). Tipis sih.. cuma 120 halaman.
Myb hari ini lg feeling mellow abis kena ujan. jd pengen baca buku yg agak "menyentuh perasaan dan conscience". mungkin juga krn gara2 4 hari (or was it 5?) berturut2 ini gw lg sering baca berita bout perseteruan d Middle East sono.. Yaaaa maklumlah, kl ga gara2 kerja d gift shopnya hotel renaissance, mana sempat dan mana minat untuk duduk dan membaca koran.

Br sempet baca 11 halaman pertama (dan 14 halaman preface + foreword; i always read 'em whenever its available. make it easier to understand what kind of person the author is.)

For me the Holocaust/Auschwitz tragedy has always been very distant. Ya buat gw, org Indonesia pun punya penderitaannya sendiri, blm lagi compared sama sekarang, those ppl yg had to face unnecessary death cuma gara2 perang, yg mostly are caused by the ego of those ppl that we call "Leader of Nation". Plus, waktu baca The Diary of Anne Frank, ya... emg ada rasa kasian sih.. cuma kadang karena itu Diary sih ya.. of a teenager. jd.. buat gw kurang nyantol aja. Elie lbih berumur dan bukunya yg Night ini nyeritain pengelaman dia, the thoughts and lessons derived from it, renungan2nya dia, dan tujuan dia knp dia nulis itu. Dia ngerasa jd witness of a big crime of humanity. and he believes that every witness hv to testify. thERefore, Night would be his testimonial of the Holocaust (yg unsurprisingly banyak di-deny sama org d US, anti-semites, ayahnya Mel Gibson, hehe, etc.)

Second book that i bought was "Exteremely Loud & Incredibly Close" karangan Jonathan Safran Foer (pronounced "four:). Rasany pertama kali tau ni buku wktu lg liat bagian 'book review'nya the Guardian, dah gt d Newsweek edisi August 7 juga disebut2 sbg salah satu karya post-9/11 yg related or inspired by the tragedy.
Flipping through the pages of the book, sy berkesimpulan, "wah ini buku lucu.." ya ada gambar2nya gt, dan d bbrp pages typography-nya diubah2. Kata bungkus buku yg paling belakang, ni buku ngisahin seorg anak yg berusaha nyari "sesuatu" milik Bapaknya. Jd inget Until I Find You-nya John Irving - the search of a son for the remnants of his father, yg seringnya leads to the self-discovery of the son. Tp Bapaknya si anak ini udh meninggal wktu peristiwa 9/11. Satu2nya petunjuk klo "sesuatu" itu exist, adalah sebuah kunci. Karena logikanya klo ad kunci, berarti ada sesuatu yg terkunci yg hanya bisa dibuka oleh kunci itu.

Ingat Capt. Jack Sparrow? he found a DRAWING of a key.
yg bisa unlock sesuatu. di dalamnya apa?
ya pertama2 harus nemuin tu kunci yg bisa unlock that something yg skrg kita ga punya yang hanya bisa diketahui isinya setelah diunlock oleh kunci, yg kita ga punya juga
er.. lbih tepatnya:
If we don't have the key, we can't open whatever it is we don't have that it unlocks. So what purpose would be served in finding whatever need be unlocked, which we don't have, without first having found the key what unlocks it?


ya tapi si Oskar (the boy in this story) ga perlu bertaruh nyawa sama Capt. Davy Jones buat nyari tau dimana kunci itu soalnya he already FOUND the key. Well bukan found kali ya, kan soalny klo finding, kan berarti dia sebelumnya do the act of SEARCHING. He got the key incidentally.

Lalu apakah "sesuatu" di novel itu???
saya juga ndak tau :p
tp rasanya buku ini menarik, lets hope that it doesnt contain a still-beating heart :D

9.30 pm i closed the shop, tdinya sih pengen beli payung €5-an yg dijual di situ. tp abis :( hiks..
cuma untungnya emang si ujan ga turun lagi sih wktu prjalanan pulang sy k rumah.
im expecting him to come tomorrow dan hari2 berikutnya dlm minggu ini (ya.. bgitulah mnurut weather forecastnya). n i also expect myself to find an umbrella tomorrow. so i can enjoy the rain without getting (really) wet :)