your life will never be the same

ladies and gentlemen,

i present to you.. uhm.. just click the 'play' button..

this kind of thing.. get stuck in your head for hours xD
cant stop thinking about 'em.
four dancing.. yellow pink purple and blue.. with dots and lines xD
seven minutes.. lol
udah melodinya sama..
i was screaming and laughing all the time xD
watched it with prima.. our reactions were, among others:
"oh my God"
"what is THAT???"
"oh okay.. Hi Nirodh"
"oh wow.. I didnt know that.."
"oh my God. seven minutes?"
"6 minutes! we're almost there!!!" xD
"this thing is longer than a music video!"
"good tool for brainwashing, tho.."

For the past 11 years, P Narsingh Rao, director of Nrityanjali academy, a socio-cultural group based in Hyderabad, has been using the performing arts to promote awareness. (source)

looking back..

5 days to go before my 24th birthday. some highlights of my life (thanks vin for the inspiration :)):

1. broke up with a long-term (well longest for me) serious boyfriend
2. being totally broke
3. getting married.. to a yapping git :p
4. found a cute substance that's hard to ignore
5. say bye bye to cute substance
6. repeat 4&5 at least three times xD
7. be a social outcast
8. found what 'love' really means (neah i lied :p)
9. lost my salary
10. watchd radiohead perform live
11. watchd slash and scott weiland perform live
12. tried painting
13. went to eurodisney
14. had my parents come visit me
15. had first disagreement with parents
16. wrote a book review for ABC
17. realise my youth is finally over
18. whatever i wntd to do to change/improve myself: ITS TOO LATE

i dont want to be older..

6 more things to add:
1. ate noodle voluntarily for the first time -_- always staying away frm noodles.. but basic survival urge made me finally ate those curly-wurly things
2. own a senseo-apparaat xD
3. managed to have a coffee-and-nicotine-free day. woo-hoo
4. found out that noisy indie rock can be listen-able as well
5. finally.. take a shower.. EVERYDAY! =D well okay, i missed one day coz i didnt hv to go anywhere.. but it was only ONE day. =D
6. having the feeling that im in control of my life and at the same time im not.

good morning, sunshine..

wake up wake up. It's the third time,..
you've tried to reawaken.
Interrupted. In a land,..
that is forsaken.
which way up? -- fuck up pattern
wake up, wake up

a short poem by C.C. =P

(published with permission, heheh..)


Beyonce and Justin Timberlake SNL Skit (11/15/08)

:D thanks, Feb!

oh and IFFR is 5 days away! there's gonna b 11 Indonesian titles playing:
  • 9808 An Anthology of 10th Year Indonesian Reform, 10 shorts by 10 film-makers
  • The Anniversary Gift
  • Blind Pig Who Wants to Fly. Was also premièred at Jiffest 08
  • Joko Anwar's Forbidden Door
  • Heaven for Insanity, a short on mental institution
  • Jermal. A collaboration between Indonesian, Dutch, German, and Switzerland film-makers
  • Kantata Takwa
  • The Shaman.. looks like my kind of movie :p
  • Small Step of Morning, by Holland graduate Kusuma Widjaja Putu
  • Takut: Faces of Fear. Six horror shorts.
  • Garin Nugroho's Under The Tree..

    umm yea.. horror flicks are always so "hip" in Indo.. thx for the head-up vin :D
  • wolvie <3

    i dont care if the movie suck.. its.. hugh jackman... *drool*

    ooh and gambit's gonna b there as well :D

    for abc's you review: loser's town by daniel depp (drafts)

    This is what i'm planning to write..comments?:

    I picked the book because.. of the cheesy title :p and it might be an easy one to review. Summarised, the story goes like this: An ex stuntman, trying to protect an A-list Hollywood star, from a B-list gangster. The author was Daniel Depp, further googling revealed that he is johnny depp's half-brother. From then on the truth dawned upon me that i'm going to review a relative of my favorite Hollywood actor. enough of the stardom bafflement, daniel depp's novel promised a noir-hollywood work of fiction. embellishing the fact that he's an insider so it should offer "juicy" details about the most famous complex on earth.

    Being the first part of a series of novel that is more to come, it should be pretty important for this début to engage its readers with the main character, the ex-stuntman aka cowboy aka texas aka David Spandau. Which he succeeds. But for the rest, the novel doesnt really give anything special. The "inside Hollywood" feel can be achieved nowadays via extensive news feed, tv shows/series.. people who reach to this book on the bookshelf might be somebody who is curious about the author, looking for a light crime-nuanced read, but don't expect to find a literature masterpiece.

    would they be intrigued enough to read the sequel? they might. amidst the rather weak climax, unripe character development, and a blatant ending, with enough marketing, the series might find its own niche reader. being the half-brother of johnny depp surely helps.

    and here's a new japanese trailer for watchmen :D

    version 2.0. - updated 130109@11.30am

    Loser's Town is to be the first from the David Spandau crime novel series. In his début novel, Daniel Depp took his reader to the world of David Spandau. An ex stuntman now making a living as a Private Investigator for Hollywood celebrity clients. He got hired by Bobby Dye, a rising star who feared that he got black-mailed by Richie, a local mobster.

    The author tried to deliver, as promised by the back cover, detailed sceneries and trivia of Tinseltown. The glam, the fame, the precognitive "all that glitters is not gold". The book is constantly playing with the concept that everybody loves tragedy, a sad story behind the superficially sovereign. The romanticism of the forlorn cowboy in a jungle of fake confidence and greed. Aren't we all just lonely human beings in the end, trying to make out something from our lives. Or from Richie's perspective (and according to Depp, everybody else who lives in Hollywood), make movies.

    Amidst the rather weak climax, unripe character development (except for the main character), and a blatant ending, Depp managed to polish Spandau's persona in a way that make readers sympathize in the end. Personally speaking, the reason why I might be interested in reading the sequel is to find out whatever will happen next to Spandau. Loser's Town does not need to be an acclaimed literature. With good marketing the series will find its own niche reader. I hate to say this but being the half-brother of Johnny Depp surely helps.

    im a douche bag

    dear readers,

    this is how a 'douche' look like in Holland:

    i started watching south park when i moved here. eric n friends like to say 'douche' or 'douche bag'. i thought, "hey.. thats cute, i dont know that 'shower' can b used as a swear word. I guess thats what happend to other completely innocent words such as 'balls' and 'pussy'".

    But alas, now im not so innocent anymore.. for it was revealed to me, the true meaning of 'douche'
    (n) douche, douche bag (a small syringe with detachable nozzles; used for vaginal lavage and enemas)
    i feel not so innocent anymore.. i feel betrayed.. whyyyy south park.. whhhyyyy??????? T___________T

    but yeah, doesnt mean that i'll refrain from using the word. its fun to say it.. you're a dusshhh... a dusshhh baaaaag... its just, now i hv the correct mental image whenever i hear/say those words again =D

    late-night discovery

    still the same person
    might know one more thing or two compared to a couple of years ago..
    but in general,
    still the same person..
    HAPPY NEW YEAR!! Here's my resolution:
  • inspired by die -> finish a book every 2 months
  • start having a planned/patterned day. i never really organise my days, letting everything flow. so im gonna try to come up with a "schedule" and see if i could keep it =p

    last week Tuesday ifta invited me n elvin to her place. It was my day off so i decided to "cook" something for them. i lookd around for an easy recipe n i found this: fromage blanc and blueberry crepe blintzes. The recipe looked easy n the photo looked good. but of course, some small 'disasters' followed, my blintzes didnt turn out like the picture xD i substituted fromage blanc with roomkaas (easier to find in supermarkets here.. NOT i didnt knw that fromage blanc in NL=kwark :p).

    So instead, my blintz looked like this:

    And the following are the events that caused it:
    ~first: i didnt knw where to find crepes -.- so i thought i might use.... pancakes instead.. xD yea op kors i could also make my own, crepes in this occasion, but laziness prevailed n i went for pancakes.
    ~second: i didnt pre-heat the pancakes :p so when i tried to roll it, it broke xD as i lookd at my destroyed roll of pancake ifta casually saved the day by saying "try to heat it up first in the microwave".. GENIUS! why didnt i think of that? xD
    ~third: instead of using normal sugar, i used bastard sugar.. why? coz its cheaper xD result: the blueberry sauce almost turned into blueberry jam! lol..
    ~fourth: absent-mindedly i threw away almost all of the blueberry 'syrup' to the sink -.-

    luckily ifta cookd a major yummy spaghetti ^^ n we were so full so we decided to eat the pancake for breakfast. bsides.. who eats pancake for dinner? :p well.. i was already nibbling some even after saying "i'm full.. i'm full!".

    the girls looking happy after yummy spaghetti

    after dinner was MOVIE time! yay!! ifta had this selection of... INDONESIAN horror movies!!! xD the options were The Legend of Sundel Bolong, The Legend of Sundel Bolong 2, and The Wall.

    i had to "censor" ifta coz she didnt wear her headscarf :p

    Sundel Bolong is *ahum* ..
    ...a female ghost in Indonesian mythology with long hair n (like most female ghosts..there must be an international convention for this..) wears a white long dress. She lost some skin on her back (see movie picture) but it was partly covered by her long hair. Some stories has it that she was raped and then died, some stories added that she gave birth in her grave. (how this is possible i have nooooo clue). Some stories said that besides scaring the living hell out of people they also take newborn babies.. or.. ask a living person to hold her baby and then something scary supposed to happen when that person agrees. (Loosely translated from wikipedia :p)
    The Wall i guess was about this female ghost that showed up from the wall (hence the title xD). So The Legend of Sundel Bolong won unanimously :P

    It was not as crappy as i thought xD Baim was kinda cute, he looked like the whiter version (and straight hair version, and no-beard version, and famous version xD).. of neysa's husband *giggle*. The movie also had some twist that i didnt expect such as .. the part when the village workers and the religious people started slaughtering each other :D but we're still wondering whether the husband whose wife had turned into the sundel bolong might b able to remarry.. well i guess we have to save the question for The Legend of Sundel Bolong 2!!!

    anyways.. was great fun..

    so here's the recipe again, with metric conversion n how to make ur own crepes :D (for 10 average-sized rolls of goodness :p)

    1.5 cups of ricotta cheese
    0.5 cup of cream cheese (or kwark)
    1 lemon
    5 tablespoons of sugar
    4 eggs
    340gr of blueberries (bosbessen or bosvruchten or blauw bessen). the recipe asked for frozen ones but i think u can find fresh ones here in NL... but since they're going to be used as the sauce, i opted for the jarred ones cause they hv this 'syrup' inside.
    1.25 cups of flour
    1/8 teaspoon of salt
    1.75 cups of milk (volle melk is recommended of course)
    2 tablespoons of melted butter
    some more butter for sautéing
    10 crepes..

    1. making the crepes: -> this looks like my next project.. if only i could find ppl to eat 'em xD ..blend 3 eggs, 1 cup flour, salt, milk, and the melted butter.. 'pulse' until its properly blend. Chill for 1 hour or up to 1 day. Heat the frying pan (medium-high), melt some butter, pour in approx. 2 tablespoons of batter. Tilt the pan around to coat the surface evenly. After 45 sec-1 minute, or until its translucent and dry, loosen the edges with a spatula and toss it over to a piece of wax paper (baking paper). use wax paper in between crepes to avoid it from sticking to each other.

    2. Preheat oven to 200 degrees Celcius.

    3. The cheese filling: grate the whole lemon (only use the yellow part! dont grate the whole skin off xD), mix it with the cheeses, the egg, and 3.5 tablespoons of sugar for approx. 30 seconds.

    4. Fold the crepe in half, and place the rounded edge at facing up. Take about one full tablespoon of the filling and put it on the right of centre in a vertical stripe that does not quite reach the top and bottom edges of the crêpe. Then fold the top and bottom of the crêpe so that it just tucks over the cheese filling, and then fold the right side over the filling, and roll it gently toward the left. Repeat for the next 10 crepes.

    5. Melt 1 teaspoon of butter on medium-high heat and sauté the crepes 2 minutes per side, to make them crispy. Repeat to all crepes.

    6. Transfer the crepes to a baking sheet, and bake for 8 minutes.

    7. The blueberry sauce: cut the lemon in half and juice one halve. keep the other halve for.. i dont know.. scaring off cockroaches maybe.. combine the blueberries, lemon juice, the rest of the sugar and flour in a saucepan over medium high heat. Simmer for the 8 minutes that the blintzes are in the oven.

    8. Plate the blintzes, and serve the blueberry sauce alongside.
  • robyn's be mine

    *sung with tears runnin down*
    It's a good thing tears never show in the pouring rain
    As if a good thing ever could make up for all the pain
    There'll be no last chance to promise to never mess it up again
    Just the sweet pain of watching your back as you walk
    As I'm watching you walk away
    And now you're gone, there's like an echo in my head
    And I remember every word you said

    It's a cruel thing you'll never know all the ways I tried
    It's a hard thing, faking a smile when I
    feel like I'm falling apart inside

    But you never were, and you never will be mine

    For the first time, there is no mercy in your eyes
    And the cold wind is hitting my face and you're gone
    And you're walking away
    And now I'm helpless
    Sometimes wishing's just no good
    'Cause you don't see me like I wish you would

    There's a moment to seize everytime that we meet
    But you always keep passing me by

    You looked happy, and that's great
    I just miss you, that's all

    dancing version here ballad version here