wasi found this pic in lookbook some time ago. she had it in her laptop for quite a while n today she showed it to me.

when i saw it,.. it made it to my freakish moments list.

apa-apaan ini -_-

Nothing interesting came up to my life lately im jst gnna throw in more personality/random useless stuff.. And this one's effin annoying -_-

You appreciate the better things of life and you don't particularly want to strive in order to achieve them. What a pity you were not born into the Gentry with servants, etc. Unfortunately - life is not like that. You have the ability to be whatever it is that you would like to be but you must make the effort. ahahah.. dammit -_-

You are experiencing considerable difficulty trying to achieve your goals. As a consequence of this you are becoming more and more irritable. Your friends and acquaintances are finding it increasingly more difficult to appease or to reason with you. You are the cause of your own problems. ouch Don't be so impulsive. double ouch It is your vacillation that can lead to problems and uncertainties. ouch.. ouch.. ouch.. -_- Ease up a little. Ease up a little??

In spite of all the opposition, you are insisting that your goals are realistic but circumstances are forcing you to compromise. You are not very happy with this situation but there is little that you can do about it. You have very strict standards which you try to apply to everyone who enters your sphere of influence.

At this moment in time you feel as if you have lost the strength of will to contend with existing problems and difficulties which appear to you as deliberate opposition. You are trying to stand your ground but the pressures are intolerable. You would like some co-operation from those around you but it's not forthcoming so you feel that, in its absence, there is nothing you can do to improve the current situation. You would like nothing better than to 'get away from it all'.

Circumstances are such that you have been exposed to considerable stress and tension, perhaps due to unfulfilled emotional needs. You would like nothing better than to escape from it all by retiring to some 'fantasy land' where you are permitted to RELAX and get back your strength.

>>its like somebody's reading my nightmare -no, its my life- out loud to me -_-

stupid hovering cubes..



update april 22nd 2009

Is it that you are working - or even playing - too hard? Because it would seem that you are experiencing a great deal of pent-up emotion at this time which could possibly take effect and lead to irrational behaviour.

You are working extremely hard trying to improve your image. You need for those people in positions that matter to recognise your potential and to acknowledge you.

You are a rather inhibited sort of person. This could be the result of your upbringing or of your schooling, whatever. You are able to obtain satisfaction from various forms of physical or emotional activity but all in all you are inclined to be emotionally withdrawn. As a consequence of this you find it difficult to sustain any deep involvement.

Stresses resulting from a recent disappointment have led to considerable trepidation. It would seem that there seems to be so much left undone. Everything surrounds you with that air of uncertainty. You badly need to feel a sense of security and whatever it takes to protect you against further disappointment. At this particular time you doubt that things could be any better in the future but you are sticking to your guns and refusing to take advice from any source.

At this time you don't particularly like yourself. Everything that you have tried to do seems to have gone wrong. This makes you feel that there is no point in trying to start again. Apart from being stressed and tense, you are angry with yourself and have unadmitted self-contempt. Your refusal to admit that you and you alone is the basic cause of your problems leads to you adopting a headstrong and defiant attitude. If you take stock of yourself, smile a little and let go, everything will turn out OK. Have you not heard of the cliche 'smile and the world smiles with you - cry and you cry alone!'?


what ulma needs

- a friday night home (to focus on one track)
- to be de-programmed


thanks, zoomdoggle!

Ready to find out what you need? What you really need? Like on the deepest level possible…

Google knows all. Simply google your name, and the word NEEDS, all in quotes. Whatever comes up is, well, exactly what you need.

hahahah.. eat that!

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties. well..i try to
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. nyahahahaha..

Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior. u mean the handsome next door neighbour?
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. yesh, true true..

And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person. huh?
The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates. :D
Your views on education
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own. XD
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life. *nods
How do you view success:
Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working. whats the use of hving everything if u hv nobody to share it with *cough cough
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. agree up to this point.

It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear. oh geez im so shallow..
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
Ay me, how weak a thing
The heart of woman is!

Anyone can be a great fortune-teller at once. This is the secret of its popularity.

You are Silver Raccoon, who is delicate in that, you still hold girlish innocence and prettiness.
Your facial expression and action is also gentle, and tends to be bit of a poser.
Even though you are gentle and quiet, there is side of you that can not control your self-indulgence.
You don't talk much, but are a proud person and will not easily listen to other people.
This makes you stiff and obstinate.
You possess calmness that will not be moved by situations.
You tend to judge people coolly.
Personality wise, you have strong emotions, and if the situation is about yourself, you tend to be easily influenced.
In personal relationships, you prefer to keep long relations than to have a short one.
Once you have met a person who would understand you, you try to keep that relationship forever.
To do this, it may be getter if you could broaden your acquaintance, and at the same time broaden your field of interest, and develop yourself as a human being.
You are not very good at organizing and clearing up.
You prefer to spend your time outside socializing.
You are suited to stay out that to stay at home.

of course i prefer long term relationship. but what happens most of the time is the opposite =p
i like the "broadening acquaintance"-part.. *giggle*
never see myself as a social person.
yea begitulah =p
btw bahasa inggrisnya kaco nih ah yg bikin..

Repeat (playlist)

tell me in the morning

oh i prmise nt to cry, anymore..

you and i are a gang of losers
..and ppl say our babies r walking this town

i die, u smile, u laugh, i cry.

I'm afraid my time has expired
I hope you'll come and dry me
I hope you can find me
I'm afraid to rust tonight

everything will be alright

and my heart, they dont beat.
they dont beat the way they used to
and my eyes they dont recognise you no more
and my lips, they dont kiss
they dont kiss the way they used to..

i love the bones of you

i could make u smile
if u stay awhile

there's a pain in my heart.

im sorry i've met u

hit me i cn take ur cheap shots.

-ramblin' (wo)man
goin back to 505

wow s > losers

below is a preview on hw dutch teens chat..

- hi
* what did u do this weekend
- nothing
* how come nothing. tell me.
- played WoW a bit
* that's for losers
- its not
* oh no?
- im on level 75
* stupid game. get a life
- how come?
* look in the mirror, man
- go away
* weirdo

bahasanya, cara nyingkatnya.. ngalah2in anak indo ga sih? =p theyre the champions of creating frighteningly short txtspk xD

pic was taken from this article on trouw about how bullying behaviour has moved online in The Netherlands. rutger was "the nerd" in elsine's class. some adults might view their conversation as a case of bullying and feared a more serious effects that might caused by it. however elsine thought that it's supposed to be funny n she didnt mean to bully him. teachers at school gets more and more reports where students got into fights (especially on mondays) just because of an online conversation that happened during the weekend.
internet banking abn amro goblok -_-


If GOD touches you with adversity, none can relieve it
except He. And if He touches you with a blessing, He is
Omnipotent. [Al-An'am:17]
This miserable-by-choice, self-destruct person cant deny the fact that today she actually feels good n happy.. n will promise to try to maintain that happy feeling the whole day.