n then i scream n then i tore it apart, n then i cried n then i felt ignorant n then i was wrong n then i was desperate n then i fell into the darkness again n then i stood in silence n then my mind was blockd n then i said sorry n then i fought n then i admittd my mistakes n then i became defensive n then i ran away n then i couldnt sleep n then i felt lonely n then i made some new friends n then i pushed them all away n then i was solitary n then i made people happy n then i was tired n then i went to sleep