i think im being sorry too much n i hate myself a lot that i hv no room for forgiving myself, or being sorry, or liking myself, or even hating this life
i really thought of killing myself but i couldnt do it anymore
i know i did slit my wrist n it wasnt painful
but if i want to do it again,
repeatedly trying to scar myself again
it just didnt happen
im very tired of wanting to kill myself i couldnt do it anymore =/

masa mesti pake cara lain?
aspirin n booze (jarang beli booze)
minum obat banyak2 (ga terjamin)
gantung diri (ribet)
nabrakin diri (ya.. klo kliatan kyk accident trus langsung mati myb okay.. tp kl ternyata malah jd sekarat n sakit2 gtu.. kan ga enak)

dunno lah dunno

*dragging my feet and continue living*