everything happens for a reason... rite?
so when a gf asked me why i broke up,
part of me doesnt want to go back to the past, recollecting the things that had happened
part of me said i need to do that.. just to have an answer to above's question.
and so, i took a deep breath, and start with:
1. i hv 2 admit that after all what happend, we dont hv that strong base 4 an LDR
2. i am overwhelmingly anxious/uneasy/u-name-it while he's more the carefree type
3. he thought that his feelings for me was more like to a friend, knp aku bilang "thought" bukan was atau is? soalny i detect a tone-change :p so he might b lying. anything to get rid of me :)
umm.. yg bagian neurotic ini yg rada bothering me..
why sy overtly-anxious?
even the ex that i thought was overtly an attention-giver, also said that i'm neurotic.
knp sy bgitu uncomfortablenya?
i think somebody said that if u're not comfy wit urself, then u can never b comfy wit others. ternyata sy blm sepenuhny sembuh dari negative feeling n thoughts :p negativity/pesimism-->neuroticism, no?
tp aku ngecek2 lagi sih di dictionary.com, if i fit those words "neurotic, anxious," emm partly yes. but one word that also surprised me: obsessive o_O
moi? hmm.. masa sih?
*after clicking a few times*
oh,.. okay, pheww.. ngga kok.. obsessive tu berlebihan (or mybe i am, i am obsessively neurotic :p)
and i was confusing it with: possessive
now that.. i've got nothing to do with.
and umm i thought i was going to write this long list.. but.. apparently i could just stop at #3 (geez.. that's boring)