this is not about anatomically correct bone socks

I got a day-off from the restaurant today, just finished off sending the latest contact info of and to all countries, masih ada international evaluation report menunggu. but what do i do? i decided to blog. while i have no topic whatsoever to write. there is some, but cant decide which one to write first =/

seriously, i've been trying to figure out what to do about my future. i was thinking of doing this grad stuff in Sweden.. something in development field. why development field? well, i've been working for NGO's for almost 2 years now. and i really enjoyed it. for the meantime i always wished that i could have more 'field'-experience than behind-the-desk stuff.

makanya when i read the programme i had this thought "hmm.. isnt it more useful if i hv some real experience?", i mean.. in the end i want to work for indonesian communities. not for European or African (my current job, n a previous one are about those two continents). so there are three programmes that i've laid my eyes on: management for international development (condong k organisasi2 aid tingkat dunia - world bank, un.. might b to heavy for me :p), development studies (this i think would b useful to have more knowledge on what i'm dealing with, .. lagian asli, selama ini kan knowledge cuma dr kerja langsung), and communication for development (klo diliat2 ideal banget, ngegabungin communication management n development work.. tp kok gw bosen ya ma comm :p heheh.. lagian he said that uni-nya baru gt.. jd kemungkinan kurang punya nama :D yea like INHOLLAND)

my personal opinion is that it's useful to have some experience first, before doing a grad-study. well here i am with my experience. not a lot, i know. and not specifically on the field that i want to work for in the future. karena jelas aja, ways n needs org afrika sama orang indo beda banget. afrika tu bener2 under-developed, sementara indonesia well majemuk banget. masalahnya gmn cara ngeratainnya? how to get those smart n well-developed ppl to spread their knowledge n experience to under-developed regions? ow yah, blm lg di indonesia ada yg after-disaster-aid, sama yg emg fokus k development. dan coz its more visible on the news, yg after-disaster ini yg lebih banyak ngundang attention. sooooooooo emg gw kurang experience banget buat development work di indo -.-

tp klo gw pulang dulu, takutnya entar susah buat ke eropanya.. =/ meanwhile i think indonesia bisa belajar banyak dr sistem aid-organisation d sini.. (or yeah so i thought, never really2 work in NGO di indo.)

but again, jadi ato engga kuliah lagi jg tergantung gw lulusnya kapan..dan bisa dapet scholarship ato engga. altho tuition fee d sweden ndak ada.. tp at least buat living cost. coz si uni-nya bilang klo study-nya bakalan berat u wont hv time for part-time job xD

anddd lately i hv this urge to do some art-sy stuff. yes yes myb its because of that personaldna thing. but i also think its nice to try out a new hobby. lagian i'm a hippy at heart.. so why not try painting :p (or pottery, or whatever). i'd love to learn to play the guitar but unfortunately i dont want to sacrifice my fingers. oh i'd love to do yoga as well

hah seriously.. if there;s anything that needs development.. its myself -.-
yeah myb i need to wait until a couple of months before making a real decision..

and now im trying to actually save money. what for? ya for my future. any decision i made, i will have some financial support for it (either itu continue a grad-education, pulang k indo, ato ngajak keluarga jalan2 d sini :p ehehe)

Me the Considerate Artist

hihihi..
credits to Bapak Amir K.

Hereon I sincerely declare myself as a considerate artist kqkqkq..
the test result made me sound like a very nice erm.. soft-hearted, emphatic person *gg some more* (i dont even know why i cant stop giggling) altho i disagree with their use of the term 'PersonalDNA'.. and setelah dilihat2 lagi i found some cases of bad english. For instance: spontaneity instead of spontenaiety, want instead of one.. well that's all i guess :p

and so, i think Personal Quilt is more appropriate than PersonalDNA.. coz it really does look like one

(Mouse over any part of the box or strip to learn more about the traits that the colors represent)


My personalDNA Report

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ill men owki llm en ow iwa ntt odi e

this violent imagination of mine

in my head i was playing the scene
over and over again
we are in this situation where
i am standing
with a monitor screen in my hand
and again and again
i slammed it to your head
till your skull broke
till you choke blood
until you lay motionless on the floor
and your scream
that had been such beautiful music
to my ears
had stopped
and i feel extremely
relieved
and happy
and i would smile
the widest smile I've ever made

unsent 2.0

Dear [censored],

 

Thanks for your mail.

I hope you’re having a great time in [censored]

Congrats for your upcoming wedding

 

I always think of you as a character in a fictive novel I won’t bother reading

And I’m surprised that you still sent me this email

 

In other words: thank you for telling me but I couldn’t care less

 

 

Yours Sincerely,

 

 

Ulma

 

It’s either I’m too nice or I don’t have the guts to send this email xD

huckleberry finn




You're
Adventures of Huckleberry Finn!

by Mark Twain

With an affinity for floating down the river, you see things in black and white. kinda true.. i'm learning tho, that the world has a lot of 'gray' shades

The world is strange and new to you and the more you learn about it, the less it makes sense. small correction: PEOPLE are strange :D

You probably speak with an accent and others have a hard time understanding you and an even harder time taking you seriously. not that i speak with an accent but I think I have an annoying (?) child-like voice, and i tend to mumble :p so.. yeah

Nevertheless, your adventurous spirit is admirable. You really like straw hats.
xD well.. straw hats and straw underpants :D


Take the Book Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.



heheh.. kocak
well come to think of it, i do like the story.. Ingetnya sih dulu nonton filmnya.. ga inget udh baca bukunya pa belum. Taro di reading list ah :D

Wikipedia entry on the novel