"kalo ngomong sama ulma tu direct, jgn muter kemana2"

coz my head's too soft ;p
smpe sama manager wau dikasih nama "Lathif" which means subtle/soft.. soft on the head -.-

i cant take hints :D

(tp gitu ngakunya deep person -.-)

lho iya sih, sometimes i like to think n consider stuff kebanyakan

trus jadiny neglect other stuffs yg harusnya dipikirin jg :D

suka nyeplos :p

"anak ini sadis", kata kemal

boyfriend: "emang kmu peduli klo anak itu ngejauhin kmu?"
me: "engga juga sih"
boyfriend: "terus?"
me: "i just dont want to make a normal-relationship becomes distant"

humm..

im not like that to everybody

i saw this friend of friend of mine this evening
dan nyadar klo aku pake kaos yg sama yg ak pke skrg, sm wkt ketemu dia (setahun yg lalu?), well kaos, jaket, dan jeans :D

pgn gt kadang2 mengubah penampilan :p
oh vina ure such an inspiration
:D
duluuu kita bedua sama2 setia dgn jeans n t-shirt
skrg vina udh pke daster/dress lucu2.. dah dandan.. punya boot lucu
me still in jeans n t-shirt :p
kayaknya aku pernah ngepost kyk gini juga yak
its just
aku tu takut klo misalnya fokus ke appearance, aku lupa sama "inner-self" yg mesti dibagusin juga
do i sense hypocrisy here?
*sigh*
dunno
tp kata org, klo too much focusing on deficiencies, ga maju2
(kata org2 jg spertinya sy sperti itu, selalu ngeliat apa yg kurang dr diri sendiri, which reminds me of elv's post recently)
for me its hard to be positive, be nice, for myself
klo buat org laen, oh its so easy, its already like my nature
to be nice to other ppl
coba disuruh nice k diri sndiri
oh no no no
*meditasi*
"ooommmm"....

Tuesday Night Round-up

kenyanggg!!! :D
makan menggila :p
havent done that since.. erm since the 1st year here..
lasagna, kolak, rendang, ayam panggang, uhm sayur2an kukus, green curry soup, ager2, aa... masuk semua... (exc. bakso sih, huhuh maap2 sy not too interested in bakso)

tp paling sebelnya makan gila kyk gtu.. bsok pagi, pasti udh laper lg -.-
kayaknya makan banyak ga ngejamin klo ulma will not b hungry for 12 hours :p

salut for kemie.. ayam panggangnya enak :D terang aja, dibuat dgn at least 9 macam bumbu.. cool cool..

put too much expectation for my rendang :p hasilnya tak bgitu memuaskan -.- huks..
masi ada rendang ni.. ada yg mau? :D

maybe could be possibly

maybe everything that i said was just a lie
something that is only for the human eye
i in fact have become a pry
for innocent, sensitive self thoughts and apple pie

it could be that you're living in vain
or its me who could not gain
the real meaning of beauty through pain

possibly these days are merry days
full of laughters and cheerful gays
for an insolent person like I
this holiday will only be a sight for sore eyes
meaning more or less
have a happy holiday, you cowering jays

you will not like this

i love you and i miss you always
i know that i have to trust you more
and trust myself more..make myself to want to trust myself
and for myself to be trusted by myself..to make myself be trusted by none other than myself

i love you
please know that i love you
if everything in this life happened
please know that i always love you

love come and go
love scream and went away
but you own my heart my mind and my soul

God if i'm not like this
i will be arrogant
if not
i will loose You

do I have to choose?
i hate to choose
You know i can never choose T_T

God help T_T

the worry-wart speaketh

i wont complain about the dirt on my shoe
wont whine if i cant buy a new coat
i cant decide on which road i want to go
i always hesitate
too much thinking
so many people today
so lonely inside
seeing you through a thick glassed wall
sitting in the dark
my messy room
time either stops
or crawls slowly
i have a lump on my throat
if i could arrange pretty words to make up a beautiful sentence
if i could be so light-hearted so light my scars will fade
if i could find clarity again
if i could go somewhere tranquil
if i try and be persistent to keep things pure
i am not without evil thoughts and selfish needs
if only i could tie my thoughts down
and not let it flutters away without any purpose
the devil the devil in me is dancing
now im older i think i start to know what they're after
and i wonder, now that i know
will it change?
will it wear a sheep's clothing and transform itself into something else?

why do i worry about these things while others doesnt?
i sounded like those religious/philosophical people (or not)
i worry too much
and done nothing

i am too difficult maybe
too difficult to understand
have i told you enough to make you think that i should stop talking?
has it come to your mind that my thoughts are jumbled lines?

i
just
have
no
clue
at
all
about
this
whole
thing
called
life

(Koran said that every human is a 'khalifah' - leaders in life)

i
lead
myself
to
nothing
.
reducing
myself
to the point
of
nothingness
...

AlterNet: 'Christian' Game Leaves Behind A Pile of Corpses

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'Christian' Game Leaves Behind A Pile of Corpses
http://www.alternet.org/story/45767

The Left Behind video game encourages you to celebrate the birth of Jesus by wasting dozens of people at a time, using a variety of Christ-sanctioned weapons.
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once upon a time..

there lived two young maiden
heheh
neah thats from my old aurelvin and cinderulm chronicle-tale-whatever

my organisation seriously need to put more tasks on my job description -.-
skrg saya nganggur
well
ga jg sih
im gonna edit some proposals. with this NGO everything's about projects, projects and more projects.. but izzoke, coz thats where they got money from.
update some archives..

tomorrows gonna be my supervisor's last day.
and me, yinske (a volunteer for dance4life) and annelies (supervisor #2) are gonna have tea/coffee together in the afternoon.

my bf just got some feedbacks from his thesis-tutor. GOOD LUCCKK!!!

from around the web:
the Future Film Festival 2007, Bologna

Virgin Mary-Komodo: at a zoo in UK ada komodo yg bertelur without any ehm copulation with the male species

just had a meeting with MM-NL
they found me some tasks ^^ yippee
so now i am gonna do some research for the country pavillion activity, make proposal (again)
and start to think of what stuffs we would like to have

probably will b working for them as well in January.

ah lets see lets see..