fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk..

die!! you arrogant ungrateful bitch!

dying.. payah ah ni...

I'm Dying, Dying to wake up without you,
without you in my head again
I'm Dying, Dying to forget about you,
that you ever lived
There's a shade come over this
heart that's coping with
laying down to rest
I'm Dying to live without you again

I'm Dying, Dying to find a distraction,
get you away from me
I'm Dying, Dying to reach a conclusion,
so that the world can see
It's the same old story of love and glory
that broke before it bent
I'm Dying to live without you again

The first time you left I said goodbye
Now there's not a prayer that can survive

Dying, Dying to die just to come back
so we can meet again
Dying, Dying to say what I always should have said
It's a strange emotion this
but there's still hope in this
As long as there's a breath...
I'm Dying and I can't live without you again

It's a strange emotion this
but there's still hope in this
As long as there's a breath...

I'm Dying and I can't live without you
I'm Dying and I can't live without you again

n thn my mobile beeped
a message received
it was from him :)
replied "im missng u"
n then silence..

ok, did i say sumthin wrong..??

ulma's current condition

so i've successfuly ended another relationship (yet-to-be, though)

*sigh
n school's still a wreck

ah well, there goes one burden.. and pleasure :)

we had great time, thank you

yg sabar Ma, all will end well, for now just concentrate on work n ur school.

and how r u gonna manage ur life, financially

entar klo wktunya pas, when its time, when its the right person, He will show it to you.. *amen
(doa org single yg pengen pacaran :D)

3 Libras


threw you the obvious and you flew
with it on your back, a name in your recollection,
thrown down among a million same.
difficult not to feel a little bit disappointed
and passed over
when i've looked right through
to see you naked and oblivious
and you don't see me.
but i threw you the obvious
just to see if there's more behind the eyes
of a fallen angel,
the eyes of a tragedy.
here i am expecting just a little bit
too much from the wounded.
but i see through it all
and see you.
so i threw you the obvious
to see what occurs behind the eyes of a fallen angel,
eyes of a tragedy.
oh well. apparently nothing.
you don't see me.
you don't see me at all.


i would love to fall from the sky
as gravity pulls
the sky gives away
the earth is sucking me through
sucking me down

kalimat yg paling gw takut adalah, "gw boleh jujur ga.."
i mean, itu bener2 fifty-fifty.. either the answer would be extremely blowing your head off with happiness, ato being stomped by gazillions of angry stampede of elephants

or
"ok, i know it already.. lu ga usah sok2 pke kyk gtu dong ngomongny"

but lets assume that #3 is the thoughts of a ms. know-it-all.. which only makes up of 2% of female population (yes, really..)

so when tonight, the guy i like said this to me, after i told him that i felt uneasy, having this feeling.. that i like him, but i shouldnt feel like this. he has a girlfriend for God's sake.. he should realize that.
and me, i know i wouldnt like it if my bf cheated on me, i should control myself, if he couldnt control himself. imagine if i were her.. oh my God, i know im not supposed to feel/be like this.
I tried to get away from him
but
i didnt really mean it


*here it comes.. (helding my breath n dive in to the water)

besok

i dont want to see tomorrow
he might not be there
i might not be here
i dont want to see tomorrow
coz i know i will face the consequences
of the things i've done yesterday
and today
i am being a mouse
coffee tv and guilt-free
and my main interest is IT

i dont want to see tomorrow

hup hup een twee drie..

lg liat tivi
mencet2in tombol remote
stopped at this channel
wah lg aerobik!
hehhe langsung ikutan
wait.. sumthin's wrong
heheh peserta aerobiknya dong
ibu2
like the show-manager pick up the people from the street
hey you
come in
we got an aerobic show and u got to be in there
u know what?
trying hard to get in-tune with the aerobic instructor
moving arms and leg to right, and left
woman in her sari
woman with a purple dress
woman still in her make-up
i guess she just went to the morning market

its funny
well anyway we move our hands up n down
sideways, bending knees
n 15 minutes later its over :D
F*** u stupid b**** (referring to one of my housemate)
asli gw ga cocok ma dia
huff
*calming down*

ya gitu de :)

huff...

okay, i was over-reacting
its all fine now
pfiuh..
writing does help :)
im fine, im fine im fine
:) :) :)
its just this stress thingy
now.. focus on the assignment..!

(and that other cute new guy ;D)