3 Libras


threw you the obvious and you flew
with it on your back, a name in your recollection,
thrown down among a million same.
difficult not to feel a little bit disappointed
and passed over
when i've looked right through
to see you naked and oblivious
and you don't see me.
but i threw you the obvious
just to see if there's more behind the eyes
of a fallen angel,
the eyes of a tragedy.
here i am expecting just a little bit
too much from the wounded.
but i see through it all
and see you.
so i threw you the obvious
to see what occurs behind the eyes of a fallen angel,
eyes of a tragedy.
oh well. apparently nothing.
you don't see me.
you don't see me at all.


i would love to fall from the sky
as gravity pulls
the sky gives away
the earth is sucking me through
sucking me down

kalimat yg paling gw takut adalah, "gw boleh jujur ga.."
i mean, itu bener2 fifty-fifty.. either the answer would be extremely blowing your head off with happiness, ato being stomped by gazillions of angry stampede of elephants

or
"ok, i know it already.. lu ga usah sok2 pke kyk gtu dong ngomongny"

but lets assume that #3 is the thoughts of a ms. know-it-all.. which only makes up of 2% of female population (yes, really..)

so when tonight, the guy i like said this to me, after i told him that i felt uneasy, having this feeling.. that i like him, but i shouldnt feel like this. he has a girlfriend for God's sake.. he should realize that.
and me, i know i wouldnt like it if my bf cheated on me, i should control myself, if he couldnt control himself. imagine if i were her.. oh my God, i know im not supposed to feel/be like this.
I tried to get away from him
but
i didnt really mean it


*here it comes.. (helding my breath n dive in to the water)